Day 2-3
It's getting more painful.. I have left the bed only a couple of times, staving off coughing fits just to sit up... I have to drink to be able to swallow.
I actually looked in the mirror yesterday and found out that they did indeed take them both out. He said he might if the left side looked bad. I think what I saw in the mirror will forever be burned in my mind. They are both pussy, black spots/holes, and downright scary looking. They don't look like they're healing to me.
I was able to have a little chicken soup broth last night, but I think there's something caught in the left gap (where the tonsil used to be) now. Let me tell you how unpleasant this is. I can't clear my throat or do anything about it, so whatever it is just sits. Sits and lets you know it's there and you can do nothing about it.
Stephen joined me in bed last night, and it was horrible. He snored and my ears wanted to explode. He pulled the blankets over once or twice and suddenly I was in terrible pain due to them constricting my throat. Then he twitched and I had to fight off more coughing. I was in severe pain by 5am (6 hours after my last dose of painkillers)
I was crying by 10, it hurt so much. Crying makes it hurt worse.
I'm trying to force Jello in for a change, but I still can't chew at all.
It's 4pm and my left gap hurts more. I'm keeping an ice pack on it; helps me to swallow. Just drinking ice water for now. The colder it is, the better it goes down. My jaw has started to hurt now too.
I was able to sleep for about 2 hours today so far, but I'm having vivid nightmares.
And I keep opening up the mirror and the flashlight and looking at the gaping holes where they used to be. It's mostly because I keep having a nasty rotten taste in my mouth, and I'm checking to make sure it's not blood.
I actually looked in the mirror yesterday and found out that they did indeed take them both out. He said he might if the left side looked bad. I think what I saw in the mirror will forever be burned in my mind. They are both pussy, black spots/holes, and downright scary looking. They don't look like they're healing to me.
I was able to have a little chicken soup broth last night, but I think there's something caught in the left gap (where the tonsil used to be) now. Let me tell you how unpleasant this is. I can't clear my throat or do anything about it, so whatever it is just sits. Sits and lets you know it's there and you can do nothing about it.
Stephen joined me in bed last night, and it was horrible. He snored and my ears wanted to explode. He pulled the blankets over once or twice and suddenly I was in terrible pain due to them constricting my throat. Then he twitched and I had to fight off more coughing. I was in severe pain by 5am (6 hours after my last dose of painkillers)
I was crying by 10, it hurt so much. Crying makes it hurt worse.
I'm trying to force Jello in for a change, but I still can't chew at all.
It's 4pm and my left gap hurts more. I'm keeping an ice pack on it; helps me to swallow. Just drinking ice water for now. The colder it is, the better it goes down. My jaw has started to hurt now too.
I was able to sleep for about 2 hours today so far, but I'm having vivid nightmares.
And I keep opening up the mirror and the flashlight and looking at the gaping holes where they used to be. It's mostly because I keep having a nasty rotten taste in my mouth, and I'm checking to make sure it's not blood.