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It keeps dawning on me how.. well, that this is my life now! and I love it.. =) My biggest on-going concern/worry is money, as I HATE how much debt we have... but it is slowly going down. .. but Amy keeps getting on me about starting to really take steps to plan.....THE WEDDING! (Eeep! Still sounds so weird heh) We have the date... and that we want it in a church.. but other than that? No idea...
For the first time, tonight I started looking up wedding stuff on Pinterest and didnt just shut down with feelings of being overwhelmed... so thats a good sign right? heh Amy suggested we look into "the hostess house" - they do all the decorating and take down stuff which would be really nice.. but its pretty spendy, and I don't know how I feel about it... the chapel part is really nice, and simple. But the reception area looks a little too.... fancy for me.. I don't know... I really like more, simple.. and a bit of "do it yourself" unique style.. I dont want it to look like everyone elses wedding.. i want it to be unique to us... but how the hell thats gunna happen, I have NO idea...
And i have NO idea how we're gunna pay for it...and somehow goto Porto Rico afterwards! I wish we were starting with no extra debt.. thatd make prioritizing easier... and itd be easier if crap didn't keep breaking..
we got a lawn mower on craigslist and then it broke.... but tony is awesome and he took the whole thing apart and put it back together, tightening everything up and now its fine again =) YAY!
I'm worried about Mom.... abnormal mammogram.. and shes been on hormones for like, 25 years! (she had a full hysterectomy when she was 36 and has been on low dose hormones ever since...which increases ur risk of breast cancer..)... I'm esp um... worried mostly because every tuesday and every thursday we get all of the breast cancer surgery patients... and so I've had to learn quite a bit about it all.. though there is still a lot I don't know... one of the things I want to really learn more about.... Man i really really hope and pray that its benign... whatever the mammogram shows... Mom doesn't do well with surgeries and stuff... and she has enough health issues as it is... and she is the only one working.. and they just bought a house.. *sigh* k.. stop worrying, say some prayers and let it go until we find out more... no since in freaking out.. focus on the good things.... mom can't feel anything and she gets mammograms every 2 years... ultrasound is today...
Its been really weird not having the kids around, esp julianna... shes been at her grandmas house while Ashly is at her moms.. but she really misses it here/misses us so I think I'm picking her up early tomorrow (instead of on the weekend) cuz I have the next 2 days off and then when I work, tony has days off so it'll work...
Not sure what we're gunna do about Ashly..... apparently shes been massively making out with her new bf at her moms place, and its starting to be a big issue.. And her mom apparently has no issue with her having tons of little non-serious fling boyfriends she says I love you to within the first week of knowing them... and would prefer that, to her having a serious boyfriend.... ?!!!!??? Tony tried to talk to her about the habits she is developing now are going to strongly affect her as she is older and actually do for a more serious bf.... but her mom doesn't get it. She also is fine with Miranda (whos 11!) having a bf.... Tony and I don't think either girl should be "Dating" anyone yet..... not sure what we're gunna do about all this... Ultimately its Tonys decision and stuff but we talk about it and I'm glad we're on the same pg with it all... Teenagers are scary...
I have an appt with a new sleep doctor, but its not till Sept!! So my new primary doc wrote me a script for my adderall to tide me over.... I really want to try something else.. the 2 main side effects I have are getting to me.. Hope the new doc is better than my old one.... *crosses fingers*
I have been too damn sporatic with my PT stuff.. =( but I have had a fairly good 2 weeks or so joint/body wise. yay. Sleep has been all outta whack though..
I need to get back to the kitchen.. did the dishes/washed the counters/took the recycle out.... need to do the floors and wash the fan (tony took it apart for me and showed me how).
I need a new dvd holder book thingy... mine is too full lol
I fell asleep for a lil while tonight but knew i wanted to be productive but knew i was gunna be too damn tired to do so so i took adderall and then fell asleep... getting tired again.. but I'm going to the good will outlet (WOOT!) with Karen =) Man i love the bins! haha So cheap! Awesome finds! =)
OO! And I have a date with Ellie (Tonys best friends sorta wife person) to watch DINOSAURS!! I have the first 2 seasons on DVD and she posted something about it awhile ago.. so i got all excited hehe Invited her over on Thursday =) Gunna have julianna back too by then so Ellie's kiddos can play with her.
wee... time to try to go be productive again. SHould never have sat down!
For the first time, tonight I started looking up wedding stuff on Pinterest and didnt just shut down with feelings of being overwhelmed... so thats a good sign right? heh Amy suggested we look into "the hostess house" - they do all the decorating and take down stuff which would be really nice.. but its pretty spendy, and I don't know how I feel about it... the chapel part is really nice, and simple. But the reception area looks a little too.... fancy for me.. I don't know... I really like more, simple.. and a bit of "do it yourself" unique style.. I dont want it to look like everyone elses wedding.. i want it to be unique to us... but how the hell thats gunna happen, I have NO idea...
And i have NO idea how we're gunna pay for it...and somehow goto Porto Rico afterwards! I wish we were starting with no extra debt.. thatd make prioritizing easier... and itd be easier if crap didn't keep breaking..
we got a lawn mower on craigslist and then it broke.... but tony is awesome and he took the whole thing apart and put it back together, tightening everything up and now its fine again =) YAY!
I'm worried about Mom.... abnormal mammogram.. and shes been on hormones for like, 25 years! (she had a full hysterectomy when she was 36 and has been on low dose hormones ever since...which increases ur risk of breast cancer..)... I'm esp um... worried mostly because every tuesday and every thursday we get all of the breast cancer surgery patients... and so I've had to learn quite a bit about it all.. though there is still a lot I don't know... one of the things I want to really learn more about.... Man i really really hope and pray that its benign... whatever the mammogram shows... Mom doesn't do well with surgeries and stuff... and she has enough health issues as it is... and she is the only one working.. and they just bought a house.. *sigh* k.. stop worrying, say some prayers and let it go until we find out more... no since in freaking out.. focus on the good things.... mom can't feel anything and she gets mammograms every 2 years... ultrasound is today...
Its been really weird not having the kids around, esp julianna... shes been at her grandmas house while Ashly is at her moms.. but she really misses it here/misses us so I think I'm picking her up early tomorrow (instead of on the weekend) cuz I have the next 2 days off and then when I work, tony has days off so it'll work...
Not sure what we're gunna do about Ashly..... apparently shes been massively making out with her new bf at her moms place, and its starting to be a big issue.. And her mom apparently has no issue with her having tons of little non-serious fling boyfriends she says I love you to within the first week of knowing them... and would prefer that, to her having a serious boyfriend.... ?!!!!??? Tony tried to talk to her about the habits she is developing now are going to strongly affect her as she is older and actually do for a more serious bf.... but her mom doesn't get it. She also is fine with Miranda (whos 11!) having a bf.... Tony and I don't think either girl should be "Dating" anyone yet..... not sure what we're gunna do about all this... Ultimately its Tonys decision and stuff but we talk about it and I'm glad we're on the same pg with it all... Teenagers are scary...
I have an appt with a new sleep doctor, but its not till Sept!! So my new primary doc wrote me a script for my adderall to tide me over.... I really want to try something else.. the 2 main side effects I have are getting to me.. Hope the new doc is better than my old one.... *crosses fingers*
I have been too damn sporatic with my PT stuff.. =( but I have had a fairly good 2 weeks or so joint/body wise. yay. Sleep has been all outta whack though..
I need to get back to the kitchen.. did the dishes/washed the counters/took the recycle out.... need to do the floors and wash the fan (tony took it apart for me and showed me how).
I need a new dvd holder book thingy... mine is too full lol
I fell asleep for a lil while tonight but knew i wanted to be productive but knew i was gunna be too damn tired to do so so i took adderall and then fell asleep... getting tired again.. but I'm going to the good will outlet (WOOT!) with Karen =) Man i love the bins! haha So cheap! Awesome finds! =)
OO! And I have a date with Ellie (Tonys best friends sorta wife person) to watch DINOSAURS!! I have the first 2 seasons on DVD and she posted something about it awhile ago.. so i got all excited hehe Invited her over on Thursday =) Gunna have julianna back too by then so Ellie's kiddos can play with her.
wee... time to try to go be productive again. SHould never have sat down!