sing the last thought on your mind, the last word on your breath.
i love these lyrics;
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
by Ingrid Michaelson
oh how appropriate. :)
Old navy does have some pretty good commercials out (i say this because i've been obsessed with this song and the neon lights song they have in their commercials as of late)
How can i explain my life these past few weeks, or rather months? it's been a journey thats for sure and i cant even tell you how incredibly free and in love with life i am. I'm missing downtown like crazy though, i don't know. I miss being able to walk everywhere, and that feeling you get when you walk back from someones apartment, the library or a pub, or even work at night and the trees are swaying in the wind, the Spanish moss just floating around. i love the unevenness of the ground the big stones and when at 1:30 in the morning my friend amber and i decided to go power walking down king street just for shits and giggles because we wanted to get some energy into our systems. i miss being able to go out at any time of night and not have someone at home be my time keeper or just for once not being judged by the people around me *le sigh* i miss it so much. I also miss just sitting there realizing that money is low but aww what the hell i have enough for one drink so some of my friends and i would just skip out to this wine bar they have called Raval and have a glass of wine late at night after a long day at school/work. Though i am sorry that our constant plans to go fountain dipping were spoiled because of either security guards or bad timing. Oh well, theres always next year for which i am super excited about.
Lets see, next semester i am only sticking with four classes, just because I'd been killing myself with six each semester and my GPA just cant handle that damage any longer. So I'll be taking Physio Psych, psych statistics, Social psych, and a costume and design class. All my classes end at around 2 which is perfect since i got a new job at the memminger elementary school right down the road ($10 an hour to teach kids social and developmental skills after school. whose stoked!? i am.). Not to mention i am incredibly excited about this apartment I'll be getting. Rent is kind of steep but you cant beat it; its a two story town house, only 4 years old parking is included in the price has a washer and drier included a bunch of skylights so you can save on energy it has three bedrooms and two bathrooms a nice kitchen with tile floors a new stove, fridge and attached bar and then my room (yay i get the master bedroom)has a veranda which looks right out into a bunch of fruit trees on the very top. The house is yellow and its on campus. Literally, I'm one block away from my old dorm and I'll be paying about 600 less a month once its all said and done. the landlord has to go up in price a bit but it's 600 a month per person and it'll be more expensive when you add water and internet in there but in the end I still think it's worth it. Anyways even if i were to commute i would be spending close to 200 a month just on gas alone what with the prices going up so there, hehe. I see it this way my parents aren't helping me with rent or any of it anyways; i mean they are being a great help by paying my cell phone bill and still keeping me under their car insurance which i do really appreciate but they kind of still live in the past when it comes to some things. *shrugs* and i mean hey, at least my roommates are really cool girls and quiet too so that'll be a relief.
I'm just excited about next year and having my friends from the north come back down. Right now i have no idea where life is really taking me and i do feel kind of restless at times but its amazing what can happen in just a matter of 3 days and how much can change about everything you ever knew, leaving the rest of the a world a much brighter and happier place. who knows what will happen or if im even meant to hold on to that reason why i am the way i am; all i know is that in the first time for two years i can claim to actually be happy and satisfied and while im wary of my sudden good fortune i appreciate it for all that it is and all that its done for me.
Anyways, i guess this is long enough for now. love you guys and i hope for those of you who still read this and check up once on a while that everything is working out and if its not just remember that sometimes the impossible is possible and that sometimes you have to embrace the flickers of light more than you embrace the absolute and stable. Live for the moment, right? hope everyone is having a good summer and congrats to all the new graduates!!!
Jessi
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.
Cuz I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.
If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.
Cuz I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.
I'd buy you Rogaine if you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.
Cuz I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
by Ingrid Michaelson
oh how appropriate. :)
Old navy does have some pretty good commercials out (i say this because i've been obsessed with this song and the neon lights song they have in their commercials as of late)
How can i explain my life these past few weeks, or rather months? it's been a journey thats for sure and i cant even tell you how incredibly free and in love with life i am. I'm missing downtown like crazy though, i don't know. I miss being able to walk everywhere, and that feeling you get when you walk back from someones apartment, the library or a pub, or even work at night and the trees are swaying in the wind, the Spanish moss just floating around. i love the unevenness of the ground the big stones and when at 1:30 in the morning my friend amber and i decided to go power walking down king street just for shits and giggles because we wanted to get some energy into our systems. i miss being able to go out at any time of night and not have someone at home be my time keeper or just for once not being judged by the people around me *le sigh* i miss it so much. I also miss just sitting there realizing that money is low but aww what the hell i have enough for one drink so some of my friends and i would just skip out to this wine bar they have called Raval and have a glass of wine late at night after a long day at school/work. Though i am sorry that our constant plans to go fountain dipping were spoiled because of either security guards or bad timing. Oh well, theres always next year for which i am super excited about.
Lets see, next semester i am only sticking with four classes, just because I'd been killing myself with six each semester and my GPA just cant handle that damage any longer. So I'll be taking Physio Psych, psych statistics, Social psych, and a costume and design class. All my classes end at around 2 which is perfect since i got a new job at the memminger elementary school right down the road ($10 an hour to teach kids social and developmental skills after school. whose stoked!? i am.). Not to mention i am incredibly excited about this apartment I'll be getting. Rent is kind of steep but you cant beat it; its a two story town house, only 4 years old parking is included in the price has a washer and drier included a bunch of skylights so you can save on energy it has three bedrooms and two bathrooms a nice kitchen with tile floors a new stove, fridge and attached bar and then my room (yay i get the master bedroom)has a veranda which looks right out into a bunch of fruit trees on the very top. The house is yellow and its on campus. Literally, I'm one block away from my old dorm and I'll be paying about 600 less a month once its all said and done. the landlord has to go up in price a bit but it's 600 a month per person and it'll be more expensive when you add water and internet in there but in the end I still think it's worth it. Anyways even if i were to commute i would be spending close to 200 a month just on gas alone what with the prices going up so there, hehe. I see it this way my parents aren't helping me with rent or any of it anyways; i mean they are being a great help by paying my cell phone bill and still keeping me under their car insurance which i do really appreciate but they kind of still live in the past when it comes to some things. *shrugs* and i mean hey, at least my roommates are really cool girls and quiet too so that'll be a relief.
I'm just excited about next year and having my friends from the north come back down. Right now i have no idea where life is really taking me and i do feel kind of restless at times but its amazing what can happen in just a matter of 3 days and how much can change about everything you ever knew, leaving the rest of the a world a much brighter and happier place. who knows what will happen or if im even meant to hold on to that reason why i am the way i am; all i know is that in the first time for two years i can claim to actually be happy and satisfied and while im wary of my sudden good fortune i appreciate it for all that it is and all that its done for me.
Anyways, i guess this is long enough for now. love you guys and i hope for those of you who still read this and check up once on a while that everything is working out and if its not just remember that sometimes the impossible is possible and that sometimes you have to embrace the flickers of light more than you embrace the absolute and stable. Live for the moment, right? hope everyone is having a good summer and congrats to all the new graduates!!!
Jessi