Ooookaaay....
Sometimes... i think i bring these situations on myself.
I open my mouth without thinking, say something that to me seems completely innocent and someone else takes what i've said and... maybe i should explain...
Near where i work there's a cafe where i get my coffee every morning. It's close, convenient, their coffee's good, and they deliver! On a bonus i like everyone that works there, they're all really friendly and we've all spent the last couple of years joking with each other everytime we see one another.
Maybe that's where i've gone wrong?
I've treated them like friends, like guys i see and chat and joke with, but it's not like i ever flirted with any of them. They're not exactly the kind of guys who'd turn my head you know? I'm not talking looks here either, i mean, we don't have anything in common and really only talk about day to day things.
So why did one of them asking as they do every week what i'm doing on the weekened, my answering that i never do anything on the weekend's because my friends all have boyfriends and hang out with them... and that it's odd that i'm the single one but i'm the one that seems to be happy...
So how did we go from that to him asking me if i wanted to catch up for dinner over the weekend?
I was so shocked i kind of... just automatically said oh yeah, sure why not? Then my brain kicked into gear and i realised what i'd done and then i wondered if he'd just asked me out since last i heard he had a girlfriend you know?
As far as guys go he's nice, he's funny and friendly and stuff but... we've never spoken about anything outside of the daily gossip and i don't really care much about who's doing who, i try to keep out of that.
I don't feel freaked out at this stage... but i'm still unsure as to what sort of 'out' this is... because i like him and don't want to hurt him but i don't like him and honestly couldn't see myself dating him... i don't date... and i like being single...
Isn't that odd? I LIKE being single, i don't want a boyfriend or any emotional baggage tying me down or anything... i like that i can do my own thing whenever i want to and not have to think about someone else's reactions to it.
I like that i don't have to pretend that i like normal things, i like that i can be as obsessed about transformers and fandom/fanfiction as i want and nobody cares. I like the freedom and not having all the emotional baggage that everyone seems to have in a relationship...
Is that wrong? Is it wrong that i honest to God do not want someone in my life right now? Is it weird that i find the idea unappealing even?
I've always beed weird and definitely different from most of everyone my age... but this seems odd even for me....
Am i just weird?
I open my mouth without thinking, say something that to me seems completely innocent and someone else takes what i've said and... maybe i should explain...
Near where i work there's a cafe where i get my coffee every morning. It's close, convenient, their coffee's good, and they deliver! On a bonus i like everyone that works there, they're all really friendly and we've all spent the last couple of years joking with each other everytime we see one another.
Maybe that's where i've gone wrong?
I've treated them like friends, like guys i see and chat and joke with, but it's not like i ever flirted with any of them. They're not exactly the kind of guys who'd turn my head you know? I'm not talking looks here either, i mean, we don't have anything in common and really only talk about day to day things.
So why did one of them asking as they do every week what i'm doing on the weekened, my answering that i never do anything on the weekend's because my friends all have boyfriends and hang out with them... and that it's odd that i'm the single one but i'm the one that seems to be happy...
So how did we go from that to him asking me if i wanted to catch up for dinner over the weekend?
I was so shocked i kind of... just automatically said oh yeah, sure why not? Then my brain kicked into gear and i realised what i'd done and then i wondered if he'd just asked me out since last i heard he had a girlfriend you know?
As far as guys go he's nice, he's funny and friendly and stuff but... we've never spoken about anything outside of the daily gossip and i don't really care much about who's doing who, i try to keep out of that.
I don't feel freaked out at this stage... but i'm still unsure as to what sort of 'out' this is... because i like him and don't want to hurt him but i don't like him and honestly couldn't see myself dating him... i don't date... and i like being single...
Isn't that odd? I LIKE being single, i don't want a boyfriend or any emotional baggage tying me down or anything... i like that i can do my own thing whenever i want to and not have to think about someone else's reactions to it.
I like that i don't have to pretend that i like normal things, i like that i can be as obsessed about transformers and fandom/fanfiction as i want and nobody cares. I like the freedom and not having all the emotional baggage that everyone seems to have in a relationship...
Is that wrong? Is it wrong that i honest to God do not want someone in my life right now? Is it weird that i find the idea unappealing even?
I've always beed weird and definitely different from most of everyone my age... but this seems odd even for me....
Am i just weird?