To a shitty night
Ok I dont think this night could get any worse. I mean its like what the fuck, what did I do to deserve this? But then I guess I do deserve the fucking storm that hit me tonight. Ok so first of all I want to say thank you for those very few people that hung out with me my last couple days left in michigan and thank you to those again few people that called me up to say goodbye. I guess you find out who your true friends are at times like this, and I found out, I have a few good friends. I dont know if this is my fault or theirs, but w.e! So anyways friday night I got trashed, thank you Shawn for getting us the alcohol (all $100 worth of it) and even though you decided not to hang at the party I still appreciate hooking us up. So as you can already guess I got hammered friday night and didnt really do anything that I regret, just did a lot of dumb things but thats just me when Im drunk. Im glad I got drunk because Im sure Im not gonna be getting drunk again any time soon. So friday night was my going away party and Saturday Magen took me out to get my toes and nails done which was so nice of her, and then me and Shawn hung out and then I took him to work and then I puked all night saturday because I got so sick and got no sleep then sunday shawn came over again and we just watched movies and we were gonna go swimming but we never did, then he took me to steak n shake then i drove him to work and then i cried for like an hour, because of someone, so i didnt want to drive home because i was shaking and crying so i went to the riverside park and got out of my car and layed on my roof crying and these syco guys came over and asked if i was ok and saying they could cheer me up and were like trying to touch me and i got freaked out and hurry up and got in my car and they surrounded my car..omg i was so scared. So then i went to bailey park and sat until magen called me and i went and hung out with her and a whole bunch of guys that were at the party friday and we laughed at everything and then i left around 2:30 and I come home and my neighbor comes over and says that 5 guys were trying to break into my house but he saw them and called the cops so now im like freaked out and i made sure all the doors were locked. And now im doing laundry and packing my clothes in my car since i leave tomarrow at 8 am. I dont think Im gonna write in this much anymore so here are my last words to people.....
Drew -- You can be a good friend at times and other times you can be a fucking asshole. I dont know what to believe anymore from you or anyone else that says stuff about you, and lately I have just been ignoring it. Shawn told me that your girl dont like me because I tried to hit on you..I dont know whats that all about but whatever. I hope you have a good life and you and your girl are good for eachother, you make a cute couple and I hope she makes you happy. Thanks for listening back when. You know my number, dont be a stranger.
Shawn -- Your like the only one thats been hanging with me the last couple of days, and I dont know why. I know you have strong feelings for me and Im sorry that it cant and wont go any farther than that. Me and you are good to just stay friends and you have been a good friend lately. Thanks for the good times and buying me alcohol those numerous times. I hope you find only happiness in your future, instead of all this drama you have been going through lately. Remember just tell the people how you feel, its the only way to fix things, stop being so scared.
Magen -- OMG thank you for friday night, you are the only friend that would throw me a going away party and I love you for that. Thanks for getting me drunk and introducing me to all your friends. <--Nice people btw. Me and you have been friends for forever now and I hope our friendship doesnt end just because Im moving away. You will always have my number and I'll always have yours, lets keep in touch. Im gonna miss you so much! Thanks for always being there and listening. You have been such a good friend. Thank you again for everything! P.S. Thanks for burning me you bitch, lol!
Tia -- I wish you only good luck in the future with your band. You guys are awesome. I wish you could have been there at the party friday but I understand you were I tour, I totally forget you were. Thanks for being a good friend, and being there when I got drunk that night at Francies open house. What am I gonna do without you when Im peeing on the cops? LoL I cant believe I said that, I cant believe I did alot of things that night. I love you Tia, I will always remember the good times we had and all the laughs, lets not it end just because highschool has ended.
David -- Theres so much to say to you I cant even write it all out. I love you with all my heart and always will. I would do anything for you. I dont think Ive cried over anything as much as Ive cried over you the last month. It hurts to be in love with someone that doesnt love you back. I wish I could get over you, and I wanted to so bad tonight. You dont even act like you fucking care anymore, whats up with that? I need to talk to you, Ive needed to for a week now, but it seems like you dont even want me a part of your life anymore..not even as a friend. I know I hurt you and I will forever be sorry for that so I guess I deserve all this but it hurts more than ever. Everything I do, I think about you. Even the littlest of things, how Im going to survive I dont know. Hopefully moving away will fix everything, but im sure it wont. I have one question though, if you really didnt want to see me this weekend, why couldnt you have just told me instead of lying and saying you were gonna be with family the whole time. I hope you had fun at the party tonight. Just fucking tell me you never want to see or talk to me again and I will grant your wish. I will throw your number away and I will never contact you again..is that what you want? Tell me, stop leaving me in the dark. Talk to me, tell me what you want. Call me sometime soon please, I really need to talk to you.
And for everyone else, goodbye.
Angie
Drew -- You can be a good friend at times and other times you can be a fucking asshole. I dont know what to believe anymore from you or anyone else that says stuff about you, and lately I have just been ignoring it. Shawn told me that your girl dont like me because I tried to hit on you..I dont know whats that all about but whatever. I hope you have a good life and you and your girl are good for eachother, you make a cute couple and I hope she makes you happy. Thanks for listening back when. You know my number, dont be a stranger.
Shawn -- Your like the only one thats been hanging with me the last couple of days, and I dont know why. I know you have strong feelings for me and Im sorry that it cant and wont go any farther than that. Me and you are good to just stay friends and you have been a good friend lately. Thanks for the good times and buying me alcohol those numerous times. I hope you find only happiness in your future, instead of all this drama you have been going through lately. Remember just tell the people how you feel, its the only way to fix things, stop being so scared.
Magen -- OMG thank you for friday night, you are the only friend that would throw me a going away party and I love you for that. Thanks for getting me drunk and introducing me to all your friends. <--Nice people btw. Me and you have been friends for forever now and I hope our friendship doesnt end just because Im moving away. You will always have my number and I'll always have yours, lets keep in touch. Im gonna miss you so much! Thanks for always being there and listening. You have been such a good friend. Thank you again for everything! P.S. Thanks for burning me you bitch, lol!
Tia -- I wish you only good luck in the future with your band. You guys are awesome. I wish you could have been there at the party friday but I understand you were I tour, I totally forget you were. Thanks for being a good friend, and being there when I got drunk that night at Francies open house. What am I gonna do without you when Im peeing on the cops? LoL I cant believe I said that, I cant believe I did alot of things that night. I love you Tia, I will always remember the good times we had and all the laughs, lets not it end just because highschool has ended.
David -- Theres so much to say to you I cant even write it all out. I love you with all my heart and always will. I would do anything for you. I dont think Ive cried over anything as much as Ive cried over you the last month. It hurts to be in love with someone that doesnt love you back. I wish I could get over you, and I wanted to so bad tonight. You dont even act like you fucking care anymore, whats up with that? I need to talk to you, Ive needed to for a week now, but it seems like you dont even want me a part of your life anymore..not even as a friend. I know I hurt you and I will forever be sorry for that so I guess I deserve all this but it hurts more than ever. Everything I do, I think about you. Even the littlest of things, how Im going to survive I dont know. Hopefully moving away will fix everything, but im sure it wont. I have one question though, if you really didnt want to see me this weekend, why couldnt you have just told me instead of lying and saying you were gonna be with family the whole time. I hope you had fun at the party tonight. Just fucking tell me you never want to see or talk to me again and I will grant your wish. I will throw your number away and I will never contact you again..is that what you want? Tell me, stop leaving me in the dark. Talk to me, tell me what you want. Call me sometime soon please, I really need to talk to you.
And for everyone else, goodbye.
Angie