cinnamon hazelnut...
all and all it was a great weekend. it was exactly everything a weekend was supposed to be and more. went clubbin/drinking thursday night...hit up a couple amazing parties right here in the landings friday night...drank waaaay too much...missed my mcat kaplan class saturday morning because i was too hung over to make it....went to shands hung over...friends in town...some more partying saturday night...4am jam sessions, tons of good music, some good good massaging...and i won't go into detail about other things, but it was chaos, it was maddness, it was magnificent :) there better be more weekends like it...and i didn't have to worry so much about school! no exams this week! whoooo!
my brother and shelley are officially calling it quits. HAHAHA the slut...i need to find him a suitable girl...
i need some isha/bb bonding time...yes!!! :)
so i'm basically running off no sleep whatsoever last night. i had to wake up at 7am this morning for work (this shit is really fucking up my nocturnal nature...) and i went to bed around 5am, but couldnt fall asleep at all. i suppose that's also because for the past four days, i've been going to bed at 6 or 7 in the morning. no lie. i love the night. so i'm here at work til 12:30, and i knew i desperately needed some caffeine in me...i went to go make coffee this morning, and noticed that the last person who made coffee yesterday spilled a lot of grinds in the coffee maker, below where the filter is supposed to go. i dumped out the old coffee to find a whole lot of coffee grinds on the bottom of the pot...i'm not sure that person realized or not if their coffee was a little chunky. but i didnt have time to clean the rest of it because i only had 10 minutes to get ready for work...so, not only am i a sleep deprived and cranky, but i am sleep deprived and cranky and WITHOUT MY CAFFEINE! highly dangerous. use caution when necessary.
i'm at work right now and procrastinating. and bored. so therefore, this update is fairly random.
i have a crush on a kid with a fohawk. and i dont know his name.
i feel numb. a little apathetic, but mostly just numb to certain things that should feel good. not my friends of course. some things just don't feel as good anymore. jaded, maybe? i don't quite know what to make of it, and i'm not really sure what to do about it or how to approach it. i can cry...but everything makes me cry. i want to FEEL. i want to feel something other than what i have been feeling for months...or is this just me being selfish and demanding and needy? it just all feels the same...
more and more it feels like all men are the same. it's just not fair...how one person can care SO much, and the other not at all. i'm not saying girls are any better, because we're not...but shouldn't there be a balance somewhere? in a matter of seconds...one night...six weeks.........how someone could make us feel so small...like nothing. i've started seeing things a little differently, and i don't like it...but i can't help it. i feel like i lost something very valuable to me. and i can't even feel for that either. this feeling i've had lately...i think its the first time i've ever felt like this. just...nothing. sweet naivety...it's just not fair.
i need some fucking coffee. and another massage. two people who gave me a massage yesterday even said it...why am i so fucking tense? "holy shit your back is FUUUCKED UP!" i love those boys.
i reaalllly don't want to do physics. or biochem.
"men, for the sake of getting a living, forget to live." it would be nice if someone could just tell me where that line is.
HAHAHAHA i ended with a quote. PSSSSHH!
i NEED coffee.
my brother and shelley are officially calling it quits. HAHAHA the slut...i need to find him a suitable girl...
i need some isha/bb bonding time...yes!!! :)
so i'm basically running off no sleep whatsoever last night. i had to wake up at 7am this morning for work (this shit is really fucking up my nocturnal nature...) and i went to bed around 5am, but couldnt fall asleep at all. i suppose that's also because for the past four days, i've been going to bed at 6 or 7 in the morning. no lie. i love the night. so i'm here at work til 12:30, and i knew i desperately needed some caffeine in me...i went to go make coffee this morning, and noticed that the last person who made coffee yesterday spilled a lot of grinds in the coffee maker, below where the filter is supposed to go. i dumped out the old coffee to find a whole lot of coffee grinds on the bottom of the pot...i'm not sure that person realized or not if their coffee was a little chunky. but i didnt have time to clean the rest of it because i only had 10 minutes to get ready for work...so, not only am i a sleep deprived and cranky, but i am sleep deprived and cranky and WITHOUT MY CAFFEINE! highly dangerous. use caution when necessary.
i'm at work right now and procrastinating. and bored. so therefore, this update is fairly random.
i have a crush on a kid with a fohawk. and i dont know his name.
i feel numb. a little apathetic, but mostly just numb to certain things that should feel good. not my friends of course. some things just don't feel as good anymore. jaded, maybe? i don't quite know what to make of it, and i'm not really sure what to do about it or how to approach it. i can cry...but everything makes me cry. i want to FEEL. i want to feel something other than what i have been feeling for months...or is this just me being selfish and demanding and needy? it just all feels the same...
more and more it feels like all men are the same. it's just not fair...how one person can care SO much, and the other not at all. i'm not saying girls are any better, because we're not...but shouldn't there be a balance somewhere? in a matter of seconds...one night...six weeks.........how someone could make us feel so small...like nothing. i've started seeing things a little differently, and i don't like it...but i can't help it. i feel like i lost something very valuable to me. and i can't even feel for that either. this feeling i've had lately...i think its the first time i've ever felt like this. just...nothing. sweet naivety...it's just not fair.
i need some fucking coffee. and another massage. two people who gave me a massage yesterday even said it...why am i so fucking tense? "holy shit your back is FUUUCKED UP!" i love those boys.
i reaalllly don't want to do physics. or biochem.
"men, for the sake of getting a living, forget to live." it would be nice if someone could just tell me where that line is.
HAHAHAHA i ended with a quote. PSSSSHH!
i NEED coffee.