Its been a while

[mystarlessnight]

Things are good for me

Still in California
Still with the same boy
Still excessively happy

New job
Im a nurse now
Its crazy
I do all kinds of interesting things every day
I love it
and really... its perfect for me

There are all kinds of other good things going on right now
most of which i cant mention at this current time...
Just know that Jasmin is doing better than she has ever done before

And life...
Its incredible

I look back through my journal entries
and I cant even remember what it was really like
I did a pretty good job at conveying the way i felt and the things that happened
but the emotion and the feeling...
I cant even imagine
and its kinda sad
but be honest here
I dont think i ever really want to remember what I was back then
I dont ever want to be a part of the shadows
I dont want the feel the cold isolation that I described for years
Where I am is full of light and warmth
and I could never in a billion years turn my back on it for what once was
I miss my friends
I miss my family
but as of this last weekend
my life is here
with Erik (my love)
and in California (my home)