up the ante
With all of this growth, I guess I should have expected God to expect more from me. God doesn't just teach me something and leave it at that - He helps me put the lesson into practice.
I'm excited and terrified at the same time.
God has given me a challenge in the form of a 15 year old girl. Love her, He's telling me. Love her unconditionally, as I have been teaching you to love yourself. But I'm not ready yet. I don't know how to love myself yet. How do you expect me to love her? Remember what I've taught you and Who loved her first.
I'm excited and terrified at the same time.
As a youth leader, I have the opportunity to make an impact on the lives of teenage girls struggling their way through high school, through family, through friends and drama, through first loves, through loneliness, and through unpredictable self-esteem issues, to say the least. How will I do this? How can I do this without Him? I wouldn't be able to. I can't. I know I am the leader that I am because God has brought me this far. So now, in this situation (that I feel I handled very awkwardly, let me tell you), I have the chance to try my own strength... or to just keep relying on God's. I know what I want, but I'm human. I'm selfish. I'm proud.
So God, let me be You to these girls - just a little piece. Help me rely on Your strength and not mine. Allow me to boast in You, and not in myself. Give me Your words, Your grace, Your love. I don't want to mess this up because of who I am; I want to get this right because of who You are.
I'm excited and terrified at the same time.
God has given me a challenge in the form of a 15 year old girl. Love her, He's telling me. Love her unconditionally, as I have been teaching you to love yourself. But I'm not ready yet. I don't know how to love myself yet. How do you expect me to love her? Remember what I've taught you and Who loved her first.
I'm excited and terrified at the same time.
As a youth leader, I have the opportunity to make an impact on the lives of teenage girls struggling their way through high school, through family, through friends and drama, through first loves, through loneliness, and through unpredictable self-esteem issues, to say the least. How will I do this? How can I do this without Him? I wouldn't be able to. I can't. I know I am the leader that I am because God has brought me this far. So now, in this situation (that I feel I handled very awkwardly, let me tell you), I have the chance to try my own strength... or to just keep relying on God's. I know what I want, but I'm human. I'm selfish. I'm proud.
So God, let me be You to these girls - just a little piece. Help me rely on Your strength and not mine. Allow me to boast in You, and not in myself. Give me Your words, Your grace, Your love. I don't want to mess this up because of who I am; I want to get this right because of who You are.