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I'm sad to say that this romance that I so hope for is never going to happen. Ricky does not love me in the way I love him. I mean he didn't say this as of yet, but my psychic tendacies are telling me it's a lost cause. The thing is, I'm fine with that, but when I see him, I go thru what I like to call a "mourning period". I can't find myself attracted to anyone for long periods of time after coming in contact with his infectious personality. I'm put off of other boys and I hate that because it's depressing. I just ate a lot of baked ziti and that didn't even help. I need some support.