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Something happened that confuses me. It makes me a bit happy and a lot more sad. My heart at one moment had burst and bled and it felt wonderfully terrible. I hated it. I hate this person for being so different and interesting and amazing. I don't know what to do with myself when I'm around him...he makes my chest hurt, or maybe that's just me punishing myself for having certain feelings and certain thoughts. I wish they would disappear, I sort of wish that he would. My life would be a lot better if he did. I think...I don't know.
Wow, this was so "emo". I feel like I have to wash my fingertips with soap now.
Wow, this was so "emo". I feel like I have to wash my fingertips with soap now.