what the hell have i been doing?
well lately i have been working a lot, and i don't have time to do much else. sorry if i forget to keep in touch with everyone. i do a lot of thinking all the time. which sometimes isn't very good, but it sorts emotions and my thoughts about people. last night i was on a mission to do something fun. so when plans fell through to go out to a club or something i didn't panic. i just merely made a couple phone calls and stuff. i got in touch with my friend meghan, whom i haven't seen since my junior year in high school, and i had a great time. we went to rita's for some italian ice. and then we went and walked around walmart. it was nice cause we got to talk about a lot of things and just get reaquanted. i liked it. but, that brings me back a many questions. like do i like girls or guys or both. and can you like both. i just don't know. i keep on taking it one person at a time, but is that a good thing? if i like this girl meghan should i do something about it or should i just be friends and see if she makes a move? i really don't know what to do. and if i did go out and meet a great guy who was good looking and intelligent and had a since of humor and i could talk to him and he liked me i would know what to do. i would try to be with him. why is it that i don't know what to do relationship wise with a girl? i would love to meet a great guy now. but what if i never will and then i let something with potential pass with this great girl who is good looking and going somewhere with her life and regret never trying it out. all of these thoughts and no answers yet. but thats all about that girl. tomorrow is fathers day. i got a card for my dad, i'm probley going to bring him coffee, give him the card and mow his lawn for him or something. he doesn't really celbrate stuff anyways and i think that its sentamental and it will make me feel better. my sister had her baby today too, his name is donald.... that makes it 3 little boys for her though... poor girl. and my poor niece needs a little sister... lol. i really need to figure things with me out though. i have no clue what i'm going through. but i love that i'm going to be very busy this whole week cause that keeps my mind off things... and i need a rollercoaster buddy for this week cause i'm going to dorny park with my sister so if anyone is interested please do tell me!