Why? Why? Why?

Dec 27, 2003 01:00

I've been asked a lot why I don't like Brian, why I write QAF fanfic if I don't like the show, and how I can write Brian the way I do if I don't like the way he's portrayed on the show. I'm not sure how successfully I can answer those questions, but I'm giving it a stab here ( Read more... )

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wrenlet December 26 2003, 22:45:22 UTC
Man, interesting... thought-provoking :)

I have a vague sense that Brian was a destructive force in Michael's life, but Michael's a 30-year old man, so he's responsible for taking care of himself.

He doesn't, though, take care of himself. Frankly, at the start of the series Michael and Brian are both pretty damn pathetic in their own ways. Brian is clinging to his outmoded code, and Michael is clinging to his crush. They both function in adult society despite this -- mostly -- but yeah. They're little boys in men's bodies.

That said... I don't read all the scenes the same way you do, because I do see growth happening. It's slow, and painful, but I'm pretty sure it's there. And frankly... if everyone was equally capable of waking up in the morning and deciding not to indulge in self-destructive behaviour and damaged patterns of thought, psychotherapy would not exist as an industry. I don't drink and drug and fuck my way into oblivion, but there are things I do I know I should stop, patterns I should be capable of breaking and haven't. So I can't fault Brian for not being stronger than I am.

That said. I see your Brian as the man canon!Brian can be eventually. I think that's what Justin sees in him and that's why I think Justin loves him. And I think Brian will make it there one day, too.

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