Aug 20, 2026 22:56
sometimes i feel like i'm the target for every broken relationship. i feel like i'm going no where. i feel like i'm the only one that's in love.
i hate not knowing what to do. i hate waiting for something that probably won't even come. i hate being so scared.
realizations:
*i worry too much
*i get mad too easily
*i care too much
*i'm an attention craver
*i'm a romantic.
*my priorities aren't straight
*phone calls mean the world to me.
*i love someone with all my heart. and i don't think they love me back. even though..he says he does? but i don't know.
i need help.
it's so easy to make a phone call. i don't understand what's going on. if i call he gets mad. and if he doesnt ever call i get mad. and it's stupid that i think he's going to break up with me because of that. and i really think he is.
i just love being with him. and talking to him. and just hearing his voice.
i cry too much. but i'm going to cry again. right now. my heart's breaking. again.
<33Janine