so, am I still a voodoo doll? ask my master. she'll kill me if I say anything. I need this... this this this

this

echoing fatality of words you swallowed! you whore. and you knew it! you knew it!

but I need this

it seems this is my final step in my juvenile path. im a big girl now...lol... who would've thought? time to go get a job. fill out for those pesky scholarships. end friendsips. just pack up and go. and the sad thing is, i don't think i'll truly miss anybody.
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holy crap... l.j. has changed! lol. I've been away for so long.
I have nothing to say. well thats a lie, just nothing I want to say ... much love

--Ri

BEST WEEKEND EVER! BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

I love TawnZOR, Eden, and Chris! Let me just say that no one has ever been so kind or thougtful to me on my birthday. I was seriously happy to be alive. I'm pretty pretty princess!

let me just restate-

BEST WEEKEND EVER! BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!

my mother reads my mail.
my boyfriend guilts me into sex.
I miss my old friends.
I miss not having to work.
I miss cutting.
my mother stole my blades.
My back hurts, bad, like it used to.
I can't stop caughing.
I think I spelled caughing wrong.
I have no soup.

i miss my old friends.

I am a mistake, as is everything I do. You don't get this. No one does.

I don't get this.

All I can do Is wait for monday. waiting to see brandon.lol. something I never thought I'd say. (write)

so maybe I'm the one with anger mangement issues ( Read more... )

School is great! loving meeting the new people. (not freshmen, tranfers) im not switching to chef homeroom, so I can hang out with Eden and Kenna everyday. I see Jess at least every fucking passing period, and I hate that I feel akward and hurt. and I barly see Chris now, that sucks! and I've been working every night, so I'm fucking exhausted. But ( Read more... )

doo dee doo. life is odd but whatrya gunna do? my mom wants to go to orientation for the firsttime since i started high school. Im prolly going to be the only senior who goes, let alone with their mommy. but its all good cause we're taking Joanna. that cutie pie. thats all for now. tremble in the wake of Ellen degeneres!

No one wakes me up anymore. I stay up all night watching adult swim, and sleep in all day! Im nocturnal. What the fuck is with that? anyways, I love you, old journal. I'm glad I remembered you in my time of confusion. what a comfort ( Read more... )