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yah i think this whole giving up on everything and everyone isn't going to well. it's seems to be getting worse. erin's party sucked. sorry. everything seems so weird and out of place but i guess its ok cuz things arent supopsed to be great all the time. so the person i like doesn't like me back. oh well im dealing with it. so the one person i HATE in my life, i have to live with, i seem to learn to just ignore him. when i look at it, life is just about dealing with shit when they get bad, most of the time it's not fair.. but shit happens, life goes on. so recently marcus is trying to get back with me, callin me and shit. he says he misses me, and he cant stand not havnig me in his life. hmm weird. for some reason i just dont want him back ever. i don't wanna deal with his shit ever again. usually (as everyone knows) i'd go right back to him. but i feel different this time, i don't have the feelings for him anymore. i really don't feel anything at all. i want the feeling to love someone and have them love you back again. i miss it so much, it's the best feeling in the world. but im not gonna sit here dwelling on what i can't have, im just gonna wait til the time happens. i still have this empty place inside me that needs to be filled, but oh well. im just glad i have my friends.idont think id deal with all this alone.everythings happening so fast, hopefully things will go back to normal soon.maybe?