only word
end of the road
i hv never realise..
imagine that clock will stop immediate...
i'll be sitting alone in my room...
im thinking again and again...
its a dream???reality????
then look at mirror with regret feeling....
i imagine i'll be surprised in the expected kind of way,
look around and down my head because i'm tired...
tired of everything,
but mostly tired of being like this...
why it happen to me....
am i to weak!!!
i felt like all the breath had been knocked out of me..
and the small voice of my heart said, “oh”...
i knew somehow that life had just changed...
an awkward fear came over me
i had many things going on my life...
i hated myself..
i blamed myself..
i couldn’t forgive myself
i tried, but nothing positive answer i got...
i didn’t know what else to do...
i could not bear my day to day...
i was desperate to crawl outside my own skin...
i felt like i was suffocating...
i had lost myself..in my own world....
....but...in meantime
im start thinking
life would always move forward..
i remembered how to breathe again...
i decided to change my life.
for the things that i wanted.
so this time,
i’m walking away for good..
and this time, i’m truly looking towards the future and accepting that this chapter of my life,
whatever it was, is over...
i want to welcome what’s to come with a completely light..
and open heart because now i realize i’m finally letting go of what’s false in my life
to let in what will be true...
i finally realize that the most important person i could ever love, is myself..family..Allah SWT
and part of loving myself is recognizing...
p/s : can't believe still have this...write this while listening arashi's song... feel more relaxing!!!