omg my fucking head oh wait i can take meds now...
ALSO THE SHOW DIDN'T SELL OUT TOMORROW AND I COULD TECHNICALLY AFFORD TO BUY IT 当日 KINDA ESP IF I JUST GAVE UP ON THE SPEAKER BEAR ALTOGETHER OH GOD. FACK. BUT WHAT IF THEY PLAY THE SAME SETLIST AGAIN THE HELL SHOULD I DOOOO PRETEND YOU CAN'T READ MY 悩み
2012.10.08 よこすか芸術劇場 the GazettE
GROAN OF DIPLOSOMIA 01
2012.10.09 なんばHATCH the Predators
MONSTER IN MY HEAD TOUR
2012.10.10 オリックス劇場 the GazettE
GROAN OF DIPLOSOMIA 01
無事に終了でーす！
I have many reflections and general 感想 about GOD (or "dipsomia" as RUKI says, lol), but I just drank a ton of coke and my head hurts like a bitch and I'm covered in my own filth and generally feel like I'm going to throw up. Yeah, I don't know why I decided now is the time to update my eljay wut.
But yeah, all I'll say is that Yokosuka was a little bit of a rough start, imho, but today certainly didn't disappoint (even though somehow the setlists were exactly the same wtf). I guess new music, new venue, new 盛り... it's a little much to expect perfection off the bat, eh? But yes, wonderful, wonderful. I uploaded some instagram snaps of Monday and I still have others... MAYBE I WILL MAKE AN ACTUAL BLOG P..
Anyway, really what I wanted to talk about right now is not GOD or MONSTERS IN MY HEAD (though they are wonderful), but actually God.
Now that I've made you comfortable.
I will admit this, I do believe in God. I kinda have to with all I ask of the poor guy. He's really got his hands full, but there are many things I need (and want) so very often I do ask favors, and I am sure to thank him afterwards in my own way. I don't know whose God it is, denomination-wise, but yeah, whoever he is, he's up there. Sometimes he likes to punch me in the face by letting goods start earlier than they were supposed to. Sometimes he likes to punch me in the face in a good way by proving me wrong right after I speak.
For example today I wrote some whiny shit on my twitter (at the bottom)...
Um, yeah, basically so I always go to lives and even just making remarks like 暑いね！to other fans I usually get a "why-are-you-talking-to-me"的な response like そうですね and look-away kinda response. Which is ok 個人的に, I understand, but 一般的に after a while I get tired of feeling like I'm 邪魔 to fucking everyone and their mum. :/
I like to think I'm ok with 気にしないing the HOSHITFOREIGNER! reactions I get usually, but lives are the place where it bothers me the most. But yea, the reason I was talking about this at all was because basically after I posted that I met two of the nicest fans ever, one in the admission line, Chikako, and one also alone in the seat by me, Tamu-chan! :D
So, yea. There was that.
And I'm popping some pills and watching ghost shows until I fall asleep now. I will write about the actual lives later.