nothing more than feelings
I think I am often afraid to say the way I feel. Not always in the stereotypical "big man" sort of way, but I think I'm afraid to offend or be unaccepted by people. I never usually that afraid to share my feelings with people, as long as I feel comfortable with them. I'm often most afraid to tell the people I love how I feel. Not because I love them, but because with some people who I love, we're just not used to saying those things and admiting it can be uncomfortable. I want to be more honest with my brother and father about the things I'm thinking. Family, as much as a wop like me loves it, is the strangest institution. Love's the same way. I think we idealize some things until reality breaks our ideal and we are left with a lack of understanding. I'm very happy with my life so far.
I want to tell all of my friends how much I love them. Things have been very tough at some points in my life, and the past year and a half or so of my life has been confusing in the most satisfying way, and I have known so many people who have enriched my life and enlightened my understanding in the most beautiful ways. I'm so happy I met Jesi. I've been wanting to date again for so long, and had so many opportunities to. I'm really greatful that the one opportunity I did take was one that is so rewarding. It is so refreshing to be with her, and even though I know we will both go our seperate ways all to soon, I'm happy to know her. Dating is always about experience, even when you're married and you're dating your spouse, it's about experiencing someone you're fascinated with, who you care about and who cares about you. It's a rewarding experience. I want Lyndsie to hang out with me again. I have been writing so much lately. I don't want her to move to London. I can't think of another poet I would rather exchange artistic ideas with. I hope Rex is okay. I know he and Mel's work schedule has been hard on him. It's not often you find friends who have so many strange hobbies in common. I want him to know how greatful I am for his friendship. I am excited about moving in with my brother. He has been like a constant best friend to me, even when we had nothing in common, I still felt like he could understand me. There are so many of you who I love, and I just wanted to say that. Hope all of you are having a great day. I know I am.
I want to tell all of my friends how much I love them. Things have been very tough at some points in my life, and the past year and a half or so of my life has been confusing in the most satisfying way, and I have known so many people who have enriched my life and enlightened my understanding in the most beautiful ways. I'm so happy I met Jesi. I've been wanting to date again for so long, and had so many opportunities to. I'm really greatful that the one opportunity I did take was one that is so rewarding. It is so refreshing to be with her, and even though I know we will both go our seperate ways all to soon, I'm happy to know her. Dating is always about experience, even when you're married and you're dating your spouse, it's about experiencing someone you're fascinated with, who you care about and who cares about you. It's a rewarding experience. I want Lyndsie to hang out with me again. I have been writing so much lately. I don't want her to move to London. I can't think of another poet I would rather exchange artistic ideas with. I hope Rex is okay. I know he and Mel's work schedule has been hard on him. It's not often you find friends who have so many strange hobbies in common. I want him to know how greatful I am for his friendship. I am excited about moving in with my brother. He has been like a constant best friend to me, even when we had nothing in common, I still felt like he could understand me. There are so many of you who I love, and I just wanted to say that. Hope all of you are having a great day. I know I am.