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i hardly ever update anymore. either the people who would read this were there or i just dont feel like sharing my thoughts. i've become rather reclusive. so high school is over and it still hasnt hit me that everything is ending. its weird to think i wont see any of my friends anymore but im excited about college, getting away, and meeting new people. i've wanted more female friends for a long while now. ever since junior year its been quite limited since all my classes are with the same people and they contain very few girls. i miss the times of sophomore year when i had at least one class with everyone i talked to. yearbook signing has been awkward. its hard to write a goodbye, something to be remembered by. its also weird finding out how attached some people are. i knew we were friends or at least acquaintances but i had no idea they loved me so much, i had no idea i meant so much to certain people - people who i never really spoke to often. i wish i had talked to them more during high school.
its gonna be hard saying goodbye to certain friends this summer but i do want a change, i do want to meet more people and make lots of new friends in college. im terrible with farewells. i remember the day i had to say bye to erica bailey. god that day was rough. it was rushed cause i could only stop by and the goodbye wasnt as sentimental as i wanted it to be, but i still remember seeing her teary-eyed as i drove away. i was the last person she saw in va beach. i didnt sleep that night. i still miss her so much. i have no idea how im gonna say bye to people like dani and meredith. this summer will be great though. everyone is pretty much free to hang out as long as they arent working. maybe we shouldnt get attached since we will have to say bye soon but i still want to spend every moment left this summer with the people who have made the past 4 years of my life enjoyable.
its gonna be hard saying goodbye to certain friends this summer but i do want a change, i do want to meet more people and make lots of new friends in college. im terrible with farewells. i remember the day i had to say bye to erica bailey. god that day was rough. it was rushed cause i could only stop by and the goodbye wasnt as sentimental as i wanted it to be, but i still remember seeing her teary-eyed as i drove away. i was the last person she saw in va beach. i didnt sleep that night. i still miss her so much. i have no idea how im gonna say bye to people like dani and meredith. this summer will be great though. everyone is pretty much free to hang out as long as they arent working. maybe we shouldnt get attached since we will have to say bye soon but i still want to spend every moment left this summer with the people who have made the past 4 years of my life enjoyable.