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[mylefthand12]

so its been a while since i updated, didnt quite mean to do that but o well. after the party tk and jenn slept in the hide-a-bed under mine. that was interesting. i didnt sleep much. got up and went swimming for like an hour. came back and everyone cleaned up and went home. tk and i went to his house and did stuff then went to the catcus and cut it down. 2 groups of ppl commented on his machettie lol. went back. boiled it. we tried different methods this time. instead of makeing it liquid we uber boiled it till it was solid. that shit is stick as hell. we made 6 little pancake things and then a big ass stack. it was potent as hell but it was easier to eat than the liquid. nick came over and eric and marieka followed him for some reason. they all stayed for a while. we tried playing games but it ddnt work out well. transfered some music. eventually went on a walk. nick is dumb and never brings when he knows "adventures" are likely to occur. i ended up lending him my dads shoes. we went thru the park by my dads house, then back the green belt and to my house for a little bit, then thru valley park talking about imagination and how u can block out all of reality and make it all up or u can place ppl and things in real reality, which i have a hard time doing, they must be separate brain functions, which is odd, but cool. made me think of sarah but i dont want to ask her. why did she have to be a neuroscience major. actually i guess thats one of the things i liked about her. went walking on the strand and went up a place i didnt kno existed and some horribly horribly drunk girl appologized to us for hitting our friends car. first of all what the fuck could she be thinking driveing, she was beyond plastered, and secondly why did she assume it was our friends car? anyway went thru hermosa valley, i didnt kno they were doing construction there. had to jump a few fences. started going back to my house but on the last fence tk hurt his ankle landing on sandbags. which is kinda funny considering i just opened the gate and walked thru. walked back on the greenbelt. ended up going to mcdonalds so nick could get his xbox and then to my moms house to get the bzp for him but tom was there watching the cat and i siad i wasnt going in. they tried to talk me into it but i said no im not wakeing him up and im not trying to figure out an excuse for ebing there when he wakes up and i dont want to talk to him all messed up and i dont want him even thinking someone was there and talking to my mom and getting her all worried that either im up doing probbaly stupid stuff at crazy hours of the night or theres ppl breaking in. got home and laid in bed for a long long time. watched old school. i was in the bathroom when i heard will ferral singing dust in the wind, i didnt realize it was him and it was the worst thing i ever heard. then nick played the movie over again and it was actually pretty good the second time around. i dont kno why there was a difference, i coudlnt even make it sound bad when i knew it was. anyway now i have dust in the wind stuck in my head. nick went to sleep and tk and i watched some museum movie which was reall dumb. tk went to sleep at around sunrise. i laided in bed till about 1pm i think. i dont thinki i slept. the wall was sparkleing the entire time. i think the glob didnt want to digest in our stomachs, i bet we actually took a fair amount and if it hadnt been so sticky and taken so long to digest it would have been crazy strong, it was pretty strong anyway.

we got up. nick went home. tk and i ended up going to his house for a while. then he took me home and i finished doing the pots and stuff, well kinda, and now they have scratches and the spatula is a little melted lol. then we went to jasons and talked to him for several hours. i started falling asleep at his house. i couldnt keep up with the philosophy talk. honestly i dont even remember what we were talking about. i believe it was a decent subject. i think he thinks im depressed now. which i suppose i am, but at least i have a reason. not getting into college blows. i feel isolated from the world. and i dont really know hat to do about it. but im working tommarow so ill figure it out after that lol