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so uhh, been playing video games with nick. gears of war is fun, but gets old kinda quick i think. played some marvel game, which is like xmen only with more marvel ppl in general. thats kinda fun but im over it too. both my parents happen to be gone this weekend. and nicks mom is gone too. neither of us are willing to have a party. its 3/23 which is tk and eric and tts thing, so we sorta need to have a party, but i dont want shit getting broken, and i dont wnat to have to clean, and i hate that feeling i get when ppl are at my house, and i dont have what it takes to tell ppl to go home when other ppl i dont kno are already in my house, it seems wrong. the only thing to do is to just send everyone back home. nick said he called a bunch of ppl and told them party at my house, i might end up just sending them home and saying u were invited without my permission, blame nick. im really depressed right now, i kno i could talk about good shit like going running even tho it was kinda short distance...actually really short, but whatever. i didnt get accepted to cal poly...so im not going to school next semester. technically i can take some more physics classes at elco, but im really out of things to take. and tks going to san fran, and nicks annoying and i cant stand to be around him if tks not around. so all i have left is travis basically. lol right as i typed this jason started talking to me, so i guess i have 2 friends i can be around. but with travis i feel a gap between us. i dont kno why either, maby it was new zealand, spent too much time with him and need a break. idk. i feel so lost at the moment. i knew when my best friend told me he was going away that i had better get into a school and be forced to make new friends otherwise im screwed. its weird saying this but theres no growth around travis, its all just fun cause he makes me laugh. im gona miss philosophical debates. dude fuck. im gona be bored as hell for a lot of my time. i think im gona start getting used to it....