It's now or never!
Genre : Romance, fluff
Pairing : G-Dragon (Kwon Jiyong)/T.O.P (Choi Seunghyun)
Rating : PG-13
Disclaimer : I do not own the characters but I own the plot
Summary : Put a poker face and lying to the world is easy but lying to your own heart, well..that's the problem!
Jiyong sit anxiously in front of the big mirror, checking his phone again and again. He bite his lips while his lanky fingers keep on busy texting someone. They just finished their individual photoshoot for the new album and the rest of the members are gone, except T.O.P. He supposed to be there an hour ago but he hasn't show up until now and his phone is off.
"Jiyong oppa, would you like to drink or eat something? Or do you want me to massage your shoulder? You look so tense and tired..aaaww, poor oppa! But don't worry because your noonas here are ready to make you feel comfortable! Right, ladies?" The rest of the noona in the dressing room giggles loudly and it makes Jiyong even more agitated.
"No, thanks. I don't want anything," Jiyong replied dryly. The noona didn't give up easily. Ignoring what Jiyong just said, she begin to massage Jiyong's shoulder and whispered, "Shall I accompany you tonight, oppa? Just you and me? We will have fun together and.." Without any hesitate, Jiyong stood up and yelled, "Get your filthy hands off me! How dare you touch me and talk to me like that, huh?! Don't you have any dignity?! Shame on you, bitch!" The noona was gaped in fear and the rest of the people in the dressing room remain silent. They knew that once Jiyong is angry then it's better to keep their mouth shut.
The noona begin to apologize, blabbering some incoherent words while her friends trying to pull her away from Jiyong. But apparently the noona is not smart enough. Instead of apologizing and walk away, she grab Jiyong's hands and kneeling down in front of him. "Jiyong-sshi, I'm very sorry! Please forgive me..I beg you!" She begin to cry, hoping that Jiyong will feel pity for her and forgive her easily. But Jiyong, who already in a bad mood that day, only looked at her in disgust and speak coldly, "Go away. I don't want to see you again." The noona cried even harder now and his manager trying to settle the situation, "Jiyong-ie, please calm down. Can you please forgive her? I mean.." "Yah! Stay out of this! It's none of your damn business! Shall I remind you of your duty as my manager, huh?! And this is not in your job description so be quiet, arasso?! Everybody get the fuck out of here and leave me alone!! Now!!" Jiyong screamed in anger, making everybody rushed out of the dressing room.
Jiyong grab a crystal glass and pour some Chivas Regal Royal Salute in it. He took a sip and sit on a black leather couch. With his eyes closed, he begin to mumbled, "Babo. You're such a babo, Kwon Jiyong. Just because of him, you became like this? Tsskk!"
Yes, it's because of you, Choi Seunghyun. Congratulations. You've successfully turned my world upside down, driving me crazy. Me! Kwon Jiyong a.k.a G-Dragon! A famous Hallyu shining star! Korean most talented artist and most wanted bachelor also top 5 richest singer in this country! And I'm head over heels for that dumbass!! Dammit!!
Jiyong knew Seunghyun for more than eight years now. He didn't know exactly when he start to fell in love to his hyung and it's not love at first sight, for sure. But it's more like a growing love. With the years gone by, that feeling became stronger day by day. And Jiyong totally doesn't know how to deal with it and most of all, he's afraid to admit that actually he is a gay. He did everything to deny his feelings and his needs but in the end, it's useless. The nature's will is stronger than Jiyong.
He recalls his memories, the sweet memories together with Seunghyun. Jiyong remember that his hyung is always protective and care about him in his own way. Like when they were in the airport, Jiyong stood in front of Seunghyun because there are no place to sit anymore and without a doubt, Seunghyun pulled Jiyong's hand and made him sit on his lap. "Come here, little one. It's been an exhausting day so I won't let you getting more tired than you are now." Jiyong protested, "Hyuuuung! Don't call me the little one! I'm not a child! I'm still your leader, remember?" Seunghyun scoffed, "And I'm still your hyung, remember? So no more protest. Okay?" "But I'm shy! What would people think when they saw me sitting on your lap? And the journalist? Or the fans?" Jiyong covered his blushing face with both of his hands. Seunghyun laughed softly, "Let them think whatever they want, I don't give a shit. All I care about is your health, lately you're not so healthy because of our busy schedules. And just think that I'm Santa Claus so you're sitting on my lap, asking for a present." Jiyong burst in laughter, "Alright then! Santa Hyun-claus, do I get a present because I've been a very good boy this year?" "Ho-ho-ho..we will see about that, little one!" Seunghyun answered playfully and both of them laughing happily.
Jiyong chuckled, he loves those moments. And the moments when he act so mischievous and trying to make a prank on Seunghyun but it always failed. Unlike other Big Bang members, Seunghyun knew exactly when Jiyong planning something naughty and it really annoys Jiyong because Seunghyun is immune to his poker face. But Seunghyun can also really mad at Jiyong if the latter is acting stubborn with no reason. Once, Jiyong was really sick and when he's sick, he refused to eat and that's including the medicines. Seunghyun did everything to persuade Jiyong to eat something so that he can take the medicine. He brought him different kinds of sweet bread, beef porridge, chicken soup, tteokbokki and fruits.
But no, mr. SWAG G-Dragon only wants to drink a cup of tea and smoking the cigarette in his bedroom. Without saying anything, Seunghyun grabbed the pack of cigarettes from the desk and crumbled it into pieces. Jiyong screamed with hoarse voice, "Yah! What the fuck are you doing?! It's my cigarettes! You have no right to do that!" Seunghyun glared at Jiyong, making the latter shivered in angst. "Damn well I have the right to do that! You are my dongsaeng and yes, you're also the leader of Big Bang but this have nothing to do with Big Bang! It's about your health, babo! Why are you acting so childish?! Why can't you just eat and take the medicine like any other normal people?!" Jiyong hissed, "Yes, I'm special! I'm not like any other people! I'm a very important person, a VIP! Arasso, Seunghyun-sshi?" he stuck out his tongue, mocking the older man.
Seunghyun gritted his teeth, took a deep breath and counting to ten. "Kwon Jiyong, I care about you. Not only because of your mom asking me personally to take good care of you but also because I really do care for you. So I'm asking you one more time, will you please eat something and take your medicine? If not, it's fine. I will call your mom and apologize to her because I'm failed to do my responsibility. After that, you can do whatever your want. I don't care." Few minutes goes by without any reaction from Jiyong. Seunghyun sighed, "Alright then. Bye, Jiyong." Seunghyun walking away and just before he reach the door handle, Jiyong grabbed his wrist. "Tsssk! Why the hell did you give up so easily? It's not fun!" Jiyong protested with a cute pout on his face, making Seunghyun smiles and ruffled Jiyong's pink hair.
Gosh! I love him so much! Everything about him makes me crazy in love! And how I wish our scenes in Coffee Prince and Secret Garden parody will become a reality. I will never forget the moment when his lips touching mine..so warm, so tender and oh so sweet! Making me craving for more and more.. Seunghyun hyung, what have you done? Did you cast a spell on me??
Suddenly Jiyong heard someone knocking on the door and without waiting for him to say something, the door suddenly wide open. "Jiyong-ie!!" Seunghyun greets Jiyong cheerfully and spreading his arms to hug him. But Jiyong only sit there without saying a word. "Jiyong-ie? Are you alright?" Jiyong snorted, "You're fucking late! And your stupid phone is off! Where were you?! You knew I hate to wait for so long!" Seunghyun was dumbfounded, "I was at The Shilla to promote my new drama and it took longer than I thought. I tried to call you but the battery was empty and I even borrowed Min Young's phone but her battery was also empty. So I.." Suddenly Jiyong cut Seunghyun's words before he can finish the sentence. "Oh? I didn't know that you and Min Young are so close? Are you two a couple or something?!" "What? No! I mean, yes we are a couple but only in the drama, not for real.." Seunghyun replied.
Burned with jealousy, Jiyong stood up and grab his Marc Jacobs Twill Bomber jacket, "Whatever, hyung! I'm leaving!" "Hey, wait a minute! Jiyong-ie, what the fuck is wrong with you, huh? Why are you so grumpy?" Seunghyun holding Jiyong's shoulder, blocking him away from the door. "I just hate it when things didn't go as it supposed to be! Do you have any idea when was the last time we spend some time together? Well, I bet you don't! Yeah, it was such a long time ago and I thought if you were here right on time, then we can chat about everything like we used to do! But thanks to your drama and that Min Young girl, everything is ruined! There! I've said everything, are you happy?! Now let me go, I must go to the studio!" Jiyong blurted his anger out as he trying hard to hold his tears from falling.
"Jiyong-ie, listen..I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you upset..mianhae," said Seunghyun softly. Jiyong sighed, not able to say anything. Suddenly Seunghyun took his Imprimeur Fou Hermès shawl off his neck and put it on Jiyong's neck. "Huh? What are you doing?" Jiyong raised his eyebrows. "It's cold outside and this shawl will keep you warm." Jiyong pouted, "I don't want it. This shawl doesn't match the color of my jacket so it looks odd!" Seunghyun smiles, showing his lovely dimples, "You always looks good, no matter what you are wearing, Jiyong-ie. Trust me." Jiyong felt his face getting warm so he mumbled 'thank you' and rushed to go outside.
In the backseat of his black BMW X6 M, Jiyong told his manager that he wants to sleep so he don't want to be disturbed. Jiyong bites his lips, feelings all mixed up. Suddenly he smells Seunghyun's perfume on the shawl, Terre d'Hermès. Jiyong chuckled, his beloved hyung is a big fan of Hermès lately. He has the entire line of Terre d'Hermès in his bathroom and of course, Jiyong adore Seunghyun's scent.
Pffff! I can easily lie to everybody, even to the whole world but why the heck I can't lie to myself?! I love him, I like him, I need him and I can't live without him. That's the freakin' facts! But I don't know what to do..I don't wanna confess my feelings and put my pride in danger! No way! But then, how long do I have to live like this, pretending that we're just friends with brotherhood love. Yeah right! And that Min Young girl..grrrrr! I wanna slap her face every time she act cute and clingy to Seunghyun! Back off, bitch! Choi Seunghyun is mine! Aaaaaaaarrrggghh! I'm going crazy!
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Later in the evening, Jiyong weakly entering Big Bang's dorm. It's dark and quiet, seems that everyone is sleeping already. He goes to his bedroom with heavy sigh and close the door behind him. Jiyong decided to take a quick shower and go to sleep as soon as possible. After the shower, Jiyong take the Burberry pyjama from his wardrobe and put it on his fresh and clean body. He was busy with his favorite Chocomania body lotion when all of sudden he heard a knock on the door.
"Jiyong-ie? Are you still awake?" Jiyong frowned, totally not expecting that Seunghyun is still awake. His heart is pounding faster now but Jiyong took a deep breath, get a grip of himself and opened the door, "What's wrong, hyung?" There he is, his crush, standing in front of him with an elegant black satin pyjama. Why do you always look so freakin' handsome?
But he looks so tensed, as if something is not right. "Can I come in? I need to talk to you about something." "Sure.." Seunghyun stepped inside and Jiyong closed the door, feeling puzzled.
Seunghyun standing in front of the smaller man, secretly admiring how cute Jiyong is. He never understand how can a man be so handsome and pretty at the same time. "Well?" Jiyong asked impatiently, "What do you wanna talk about?" Seunghyun sighed, "Jiyong-ie, I don't know if this is a good time for me to tell you this but I just can't stand it anymore. And I hope you can forgive me for what I'm gonna say." Oh my God, is he going to tell me that he's sick and tired of my childish act? And that he hate me? Dammit, what have I done?! Jiyong mentally cursing himself.
With a firm tone, Seunghyun continued, "But you must now that I will accept all the consequence. It's a risk that I'm willing to take so I'm ready to face the worst." Jiyong bites his lips nervously, preparing himself to hear the bad news.
"I love you, Kwon Jiyong. I'm in love with you from a very long time ago but I never have the courage to tell you how I feel. I've tried to see you only as a friend, a dongsaeng but I failed. Every day you amaze me more and more. I feel so upset everytime I heard your love escapades with Jina, Dara and Kiko, it breaks my heart into pieces but I'm helpless. And now I'm tired of hiding, tired of lying. You have to know about this because life is so uncertain. I mean, who knows..maybe suddenly I die tomorrow and I didn't have any chance to tell you the truth. So I decided, it's now or never." Seunghyun stopped for a moment meanwhile Jiyong is flabbergasted, can't believe what he just heard a moment ago.
Seunghyun grab something from his pocket. He reached for Jiyong's hand and put a box there. "Please open it, Jiyong-ie." Jiyong swallowed an imaginary lump in his throat, his hands are shaking now. He saw a small red box with Cartier written on it and he carefully open the box. Jiyong almost losing his mind when he saw two beautiful golden rings with diamonds on it. "Our names are written on those rings and they are not friendship rings because I don't want you to be my friend anymore." Jiyong staring at Seunghyun with mouth open. "Kwon Jiyong, will you be mine? Will you be my lover?" Seunghyun asked carefully.
Jiyong felt his knees become weak so he grab the chair, trying hard to calm himself. Seunghyun felt uneasy now because Jiyong didn't say any single word, "Jiyong-ie, you can take your time to think about it. I understand that you're shocked. It must be terrible to find out that your hyung is gay and even worse, he's in love with you. I will accept your decision, no matter what it will be. I will resign from Big Bang if you want me to. I'm sorry, Jiyong..for everything. Good night," said Seunghyun bitterly. He stood up, ready to leave the room when he suddenly heard Jiyong's trembling voice. "Will you please put the ring on my finger?"
Seunghyun gasped, "Are you..are you sure, Jiyong-ie? Is this means.." Jiyong bites his lips and nodded his head, "Yes, hyung. I wanna be your lover and God knows how long I've been waiting for this moment." Without any hesitate, Seunghyun pulled Jiyong into his embrace. "Thank you, Jiyong-ie. You have no idea how happy I am," whispered Seunghyun. "Same here. I felt like dying because I don't have the guts to tell you how I feel..I'm scared that you'll hate me." Seunghyun caressed Jiyong's cheek, "How can I hate the person that I love very much? You are my world, my everything."
He took one of the ring with 'Choi Seunghyun' written on it and put it gently on Jiyong's ring finger. "Do you like it?" Jiyong smiles widely and nodded, "It's magnificent, hyung." Seunghyun chuckled, "G to the D, gold and diamond boy. My pretty boy, Kwon Jiyong." Jiyong took the ring with 'Kwon Jiyong' on it and put it on Seunghyun's ring finger. "We are officially a couple now, hyung! I'm soooo happy and proud! Oh, how I wish I can make a picture of our rings and put it on my Instagram and Twitter! I wanna let the whole world to know!" Jiyong bouncing happily. Seunghyun smiles, "When the time comes, we will let the world to know about us. I promise you that."
Jiyong gives a peck on Seunghyun's lips and giggles, "Tabi is my boyfriend now! Ladies, eat your heart out!" Seunghyun laughed, "Come here you!" He pulled Jiyong closer, staring fondly to his cute lover. Their face is getting closer and Jiyong can feel his warm minty breath on his face. Seunghyun pressed his lips gently to Jiyong's lips, licking it playfully, asking for entrance. Jiyong slightly parted his lips, giving the permission to his lover to explore his hot cavern. It was a long and delicate kiss, both of them pouring their love and feelings into that kiss. A chaste kiss.
"Jiyong-ie, you taste and smells like chocolate. So sweet and addictive.." Seunghyun said with husky voice. Jiyong murmured, trying to catch his breath, "I..want you..to be addicted to me. Only me and nobody else." Seunghyun nodded, he knew that Jiyong is a possessive kind of guy and he likes it. "Hyung, stay with me tonight.." Jiyong whispered. The taller man startled a bit and smiled playfully, "Are you sure? You knew that I'm snoring and sometimes even talking in my sleep, right?" With a grin on his face, Jiyong said, "Who says that I'm going to let you sleep? It's gonna be a long night, hyung!" Jiyong winked mischievously, making Seunghyun laughed, "Come to daddy!"
~THE END~
Pairing : G-Dragon (Kwon Jiyong)/T.O.P (Choi Seunghyun)
Rating : PG-13
Disclaimer : I do not own the characters but I own the plot
Summary : Put a poker face and lying to the world is easy but lying to your own heart, well..that's the problem!
Jiyong sit anxiously in front of the big mirror, checking his phone again and again. He bite his lips while his lanky fingers keep on busy texting someone. They just finished their individual photoshoot for the new album and the rest of the members are gone, except T.O.P. He supposed to be there an hour ago but he hasn't show up until now and his phone is off.
"Jiyong oppa, would you like to drink or eat something? Or do you want me to massage your shoulder? You look so tense and tired..aaaww, poor oppa! But don't worry because your noonas here are ready to make you feel comfortable! Right, ladies?" The rest of the noona in the dressing room giggles loudly and it makes Jiyong even more agitated.
"No, thanks. I don't want anything," Jiyong replied dryly. The noona didn't give up easily. Ignoring what Jiyong just said, she begin to massage Jiyong's shoulder and whispered, "Shall I accompany you tonight, oppa? Just you and me? We will have fun together and.." Without any hesitate, Jiyong stood up and yelled, "Get your filthy hands off me! How dare you touch me and talk to me like that, huh?! Don't you have any dignity?! Shame on you, bitch!" The noona was gaped in fear and the rest of the people in the dressing room remain silent. They knew that once Jiyong is angry then it's better to keep their mouth shut.
The noona begin to apologize, blabbering some incoherent words while her friends trying to pull her away from Jiyong. But apparently the noona is not smart enough. Instead of apologizing and walk away, she grab Jiyong's hands and kneeling down in front of him. "Jiyong-sshi, I'm very sorry! Please forgive me..I beg you!" She begin to cry, hoping that Jiyong will feel pity for her and forgive her easily. But Jiyong, who already in a bad mood that day, only looked at her in disgust and speak coldly, "Go away. I don't want to see you again." The noona cried even harder now and his manager trying to settle the situation, "Jiyong-ie, please calm down. Can you please forgive her? I mean.." "Yah! Stay out of this! It's none of your damn business! Shall I remind you of your duty as my manager, huh?! And this is not in your job description so be quiet, arasso?! Everybody get the fuck out of here and leave me alone!! Now!!" Jiyong screamed in anger, making everybody rushed out of the dressing room.
Jiyong grab a crystal glass and pour some Chivas Regal Royal Salute in it. He took a sip and sit on a black leather couch. With his eyes closed, he begin to mumbled, "Babo. You're such a babo, Kwon Jiyong. Just because of him, you became like this? Tsskk!"
Yes, it's because of you, Choi Seunghyun. Congratulations. You've successfully turned my world upside down, driving me crazy. Me! Kwon Jiyong a.k.a G-Dragon! A famous Hallyu shining star! Korean most talented artist and most wanted bachelor also top 5 richest singer in this country! And I'm head over heels for that dumbass!! Dammit!!
Jiyong knew Seunghyun for more than eight years now. He didn't know exactly when he start to fell in love to his hyung and it's not love at first sight, for sure. But it's more like a growing love. With the years gone by, that feeling became stronger day by day. And Jiyong totally doesn't know how to deal with it and most of all, he's afraid to admit that actually he is a gay. He did everything to deny his feelings and his needs but in the end, it's useless. The nature's will is stronger than Jiyong.
He recalls his memories, the sweet memories together with Seunghyun. Jiyong remember that his hyung is always protective and care about him in his own way. Like when they were in the airport, Jiyong stood in front of Seunghyun because there are no place to sit anymore and without a doubt, Seunghyun pulled Jiyong's hand and made him sit on his lap. "Come here, little one. It's been an exhausting day so I won't let you getting more tired than you are now." Jiyong protested, "Hyuuuung! Don't call me the little one! I'm not a child! I'm still your leader, remember?" Seunghyun scoffed, "And I'm still your hyung, remember? So no more protest. Okay?" "But I'm shy! What would people think when they saw me sitting on your lap? And the journalist? Or the fans?" Jiyong covered his blushing face with both of his hands. Seunghyun laughed softly, "Let them think whatever they want, I don't give a shit. All I care about is your health, lately you're not so healthy because of our busy schedules. And just think that I'm Santa Claus so you're sitting on my lap, asking for a present." Jiyong burst in laughter, "Alright then! Santa Hyun-claus, do I get a present because I've been a very good boy this year?" "Ho-ho-ho..we will see about that, little one!" Seunghyun answered playfully and both of them laughing happily.
Jiyong chuckled, he loves those moments. And the moments when he act so mischievous and trying to make a prank on Seunghyun but it always failed. Unlike other Big Bang members, Seunghyun knew exactly when Jiyong planning something naughty and it really annoys Jiyong because Seunghyun is immune to his poker face. But Seunghyun can also really mad at Jiyong if the latter is acting stubborn with no reason. Once, Jiyong was really sick and when he's sick, he refused to eat and that's including the medicines. Seunghyun did everything to persuade Jiyong to eat something so that he can take the medicine. He brought him different kinds of sweet bread, beef porridge, chicken soup, tteokbokki and fruits.
But no, mr. SWAG G-Dragon only wants to drink a cup of tea and smoking the cigarette in his bedroom. Without saying anything, Seunghyun grabbed the pack of cigarettes from the desk and crumbled it into pieces. Jiyong screamed with hoarse voice, "Yah! What the fuck are you doing?! It's my cigarettes! You have no right to do that!" Seunghyun glared at Jiyong, making the latter shivered in angst. "Damn well I have the right to do that! You are my dongsaeng and yes, you're also the leader of Big Bang but this have nothing to do with Big Bang! It's about your health, babo! Why are you acting so childish?! Why can't you just eat and take the medicine like any other normal people?!" Jiyong hissed, "Yes, I'm special! I'm not like any other people! I'm a very important person, a VIP! Arasso, Seunghyun-sshi?" he stuck out his tongue, mocking the older man.
Seunghyun gritted his teeth, took a deep breath and counting to ten. "Kwon Jiyong, I care about you. Not only because of your mom asking me personally to take good care of you but also because I really do care for you. So I'm asking you one more time, will you please eat something and take your medicine? If not, it's fine. I will call your mom and apologize to her because I'm failed to do my responsibility. After that, you can do whatever your want. I don't care." Few minutes goes by without any reaction from Jiyong. Seunghyun sighed, "Alright then. Bye, Jiyong." Seunghyun walking away and just before he reach the door handle, Jiyong grabbed his wrist. "Tsssk! Why the hell did you give up so easily? It's not fun!" Jiyong protested with a cute pout on his face, making Seunghyun smiles and ruffled Jiyong's pink hair.
Gosh! I love him so much! Everything about him makes me crazy in love! And how I wish our scenes in Coffee Prince and Secret Garden parody will become a reality. I will never forget the moment when his lips touching mine..so warm, so tender and oh so sweet! Making me craving for more and more.. Seunghyun hyung, what have you done? Did you cast a spell on me??
Suddenly Jiyong heard someone knocking on the door and without waiting for him to say something, the door suddenly wide open. "Jiyong-ie!!" Seunghyun greets Jiyong cheerfully and spreading his arms to hug him. But Jiyong only sit there without saying a word. "Jiyong-ie? Are you alright?" Jiyong snorted, "You're fucking late! And your stupid phone is off! Where were you?! You knew I hate to wait for so long!" Seunghyun was dumbfounded, "I was at The Shilla to promote my new drama and it took longer than I thought. I tried to call you but the battery was empty and I even borrowed Min Young's phone but her battery was also empty. So I.." Suddenly Jiyong cut Seunghyun's words before he can finish the sentence. "Oh? I didn't know that you and Min Young are so close? Are you two a couple or something?!" "What? No! I mean, yes we are a couple but only in the drama, not for real.." Seunghyun replied.
Burned with jealousy, Jiyong stood up and grab his Marc Jacobs Twill Bomber jacket, "Whatever, hyung! I'm leaving!" "Hey, wait a minute! Jiyong-ie, what the fuck is wrong with you, huh? Why are you so grumpy?" Seunghyun holding Jiyong's shoulder, blocking him away from the door. "I just hate it when things didn't go as it supposed to be! Do you have any idea when was the last time we spend some time together? Well, I bet you don't! Yeah, it was such a long time ago and I thought if you were here right on time, then we can chat about everything like we used to do! But thanks to your drama and that Min Young girl, everything is ruined! There! I've said everything, are you happy?! Now let me go, I must go to the studio!" Jiyong blurted his anger out as he trying hard to hold his tears from falling.
"Jiyong-ie, listen..I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you upset..mianhae," said Seunghyun softly. Jiyong sighed, not able to say anything. Suddenly Seunghyun took his Imprimeur Fou Hermès shawl off his neck and put it on Jiyong's neck. "Huh? What are you doing?" Jiyong raised his eyebrows. "It's cold outside and this shawl will keep you warm." Jiyong pouted, "I don't want it. This shawl doesn't match the color of my jacket so it looks odd!" Seunghyun smiles, showing his lovely dimples, "You always looks good, no matter what you are wearing, Jiyong-ie. Trust me." Jiyong felt his face getting warm so he mumbled 'thank you' and rushed to go outside.
In the backseat of his black BMW X6 M, Jiyong told his manager that he wants to sleep so he don't want to be disturbed. Jiyong bites his lips, feelings all mixed up. Suddenly he smells Seunghyun's perfume on the shawl, Terre d'Hermès. Jiyong chuckled, his beloved hyung is a big fan of Hermès lately. He has the entire line of Terre d'Hermès in his bathroom and of course, Jiyong adore Seunghyun's scent.
Pffff! I can easily lie to everybody, even to the whole world but why the heck I can't lie to myself?! I love him, I like him, I need him and I can't live without him. That's the freakin' facts! But I don't know what to do..I don't wanna confess my feelings and put my pride in danger! No way! But then, how long do I have to live like this, pretending that we're just friends with brotherhood love. Yeah right! And that Min Young girl..grrrrr! I wanna slap her face every time she act cute and clingy to Seunghyun! Back off, bitch! Choi Seunghyun is mine! Aaaaaaaarrrggghh! I'm going crazy!
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Later in the evening, Jiyong weakly entering Big Bang's dorm. It's dark and quiet, seems that everyone is sleeping already. He goes to his bedroom with heavy sigh and close the door behind him. Jiyong decided to take a quick shower and go to sleep as soon as possible. After the shower, Jiyong take the Burberry pyjama from his wardrobe and put it on his fresh and clean body. He was busy with his favorite Chocomania body lotion when all of sudden he heard a knock on the door.
"Jiyong-ie? Are you still awake?" Jiyong frowned, totally not expecting that Seunghyun is still awake. His heart is pounding faster now but Jiyong took a deep breath, get a grip of himself and opened the door, "What's wrong, hyung?" There he is, his crush, standing in front of him with an elegant black satin pyjama. Why do you always look so freakin' handsome?
But he looks so tensed, as if something is not right. "Can I come in? I need to talk to you about something." "Sure.." Seunghyun stepped inside and Jiyong closed the door, feeling puzzled.
Seunghyun standing in front of the smaller man, secretly admiring how cute Jiyong is. He never understand how can a man be so handsome and pretty at the same time. "Well?" Jiyong asked impatiently, "What do you wanna talk about?" Seunghyun sighed, "Jiyong-ie, I don't know if this is a good time for me to tell you this but I just can't stand it anymore. And I hope you can forgive me for what I'm gonna say." Oh my God, is he going to tell me that he's sick and tired of my childish act? And that he hate me? Dammit, what have I done?! Jiyong mentally cursing himself.
With a firm tone, Seunghyun continued, "But you must now that I will accept all the consequence. It's a risk that I'm willing to take so I'm ready to face the worst." Jiyong bites his lips nervously, preparing himself to hear the bad news.
"I love you, Kwon Jiyong. I'm in love with you from a very long time ago but I never have the courage to tell you how I feel. I've tried to see you only as a friend, a dongsaeng but I failed. Every day you amaze me more and more. I feel so upset everytime I heard your love escapades with Jina, Dara and Kiko, it breaks my heart into pieces but I'm helpless. And now I'm tired of hiding, tired of lying. You have to know about this because life is so uncertain. I mean, who knows..maybe suddenly I die tomorrow and I didn't have any chance to tell you the truth. So I decided, it's now or never." Seunghyun stopped for a moment meanwhile Jiyong is flabbergasted, can't believe what he just heard a moment ago.
Seunghyun grab something from his pocket. He reached for Jiyong's hand and put a box there. "Please open it, Jiyong-ie." Jiyong swallowed an imaginary lump in his throat, his hands are shaking now. He saw a small red box with Cartier written on it and he carefully open the box. Jiyong almost losing his mind when he saw two beautiful golden rings with diamonds on it. "Our names are written on those rings and they are not friendship rings because I don't want you to be my friend anymore." Jiyong staring at Seunghyun with mouth open. "Kwon Jiyong, will you be mine? Will you be my lover?" Seunghyun asked carefully.
Jiyong felt his knees become weak so he grab the chair, trying hard to calm himself. Seunghyun felt uneasy now because Jiyong didn't say any single word, "Jiyong-ie, you can take your time to think about it. I understand that you're shocked. It must be terrible to find out that your hyung is gay and even worse, he's in love with you. I will accept your decision, no matter what it will be. I will resign from Big Bang if you want me to. I'm sorry, Jiyong..for everything. Good night," said Seunghyun bitterly. He stood up, ready to leave the room when he suddenly heard Jiyong's trembling voice. "Will you please put the ring on my finger?"
Seunghyun gasped, "Are you..are you sure, Jiyong-ie? Is this means.." Jiyong bites his lips and nodded his head, "Yes, hyung. I wanna be your lover and God knows how long I've been waiting for this moment." Without any hesitate, Seunghyun pulled Jiyong into his embrace. "Thank you, Jiyong-ie. You have no idea how happy I am," whispered Seunghyun. "Same here. I felt like dying because I don't have the guts to tell you how I feel..I'm scared that you'll hate me." Seunghyun caressed Jiyong's cheek, "How can I hate the person that I love very much? You are my world, my everything."
He took one of the ring with 'Choi Seunghyun' written on it and put it gently on Jiyong's ring finger. "Do you like it?" Jiyong smiles widely and nodded, "It's magnificent, hyung." Seunghyun chuckled, "G to the D, gold and diamond boy. My pretty boy, Kwon Jiyong." Jiyong took the ring with 'Kwon Jiyong' on it and put it on Seunghyun's ring finger. "We are officially a couple now, hyung! I'm soooo happy and proud! Oh, how I wish I can make a picture of our rings and put it on my Instagram and Twitter! I wanna let the whole world to know!" Jiyong bouncing happily. Seunghyun smiles, "When the time comes, we will let the world to know about us. I promise you that."
Jiyong gives a peck on Seunghyun's lips and giggles, "Tabi is my boyfriend now! Ladies, eat your heart out!" Seunghyun laughed, "Come here you!" He pulled Jiyong closer, staring fondly to his cute lover. Their face is getting closer and Jiyong can feel his warm minty breath on his face. Seunghyun pressed his lips gently to Jiyong's lips, licking it playfully, asking for entrance. Jiyong slightly parted his lips, giving the permission to his lover to explore his hot cavern. It was a long and delicate kiss, both of them pouring their love and feelings into that kiss. A chaste kiss.
"Jiyong-ie, you taste and smells like chocolate. So sweet and addictive.." Seunghyun said with husky voice. Jiyong murmured, trying to catch his breath, "I..want you..to be addicted to me. Only me and nobody else." Seunghyun nodded, he knew that Jiyong is a possessive kind of guy and he likes it. "Hyung, stay with me tonight.." Jiyong whispered. The taller man startled a bit and smiled playfully, "Are you sure? You knew that I'm snoring and sometimes even talking in my sleep, right?" With a grin on his face, Jiyong said, "Who says that I'm going to let you sleep? It's gonna be a long night, hyung!" Jiyong winked mischievously, making Seunghyun laughed, "Come to daddy!"
~THE END~