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hookay so..yea............
i moved out of my house about a week ago..i've been spending the night at friends houses> mainly jazz's..<3<3 like a sister, indeed. i'm working my ass off..and idk what to do about school.it's such bullshit. i have three tardy's...and now i have to go to asd thursday....and i'm ready to fucking leave..it's fucking ridiculous....i'm so ready to drop out but you have to have parent permission or some shit. ARGH!?>! so yea....i talked to my mom for the first time in the past week or so...she's cool that i moved out..told me i should reconsider coming home..but fuck that shit... i'm not going to get yelled at anymore...for nothing....and love the indepedence that i have right now. i mean, it's kinda hard...and really fucking stressful..but i love it. i can't wait to get my own place..hardee's is going well..i'm getting pretty good hours..and i hope to be able to pay for everything...i really need a tune up on my car..but maybe daddy will help with that..he knows like everything about cars. i haven't been on AIM in a while..and i miss everyone muchos! <3 yea..school is really going crazy..i'm in art right now..i'm done with everything...like i want to drop psychology..1st period...sleeeep...but i dont really even want to come back...i hate all of this shit..and i'm so gonna fail ushistory..but it's an honours class...so yea...bullshit. idk...i want to have good grades and do well..but it's just not going so great. i want to be an art teacher or an elementary teacher..but yea..supporting schoool...hellz naw. or if i could own my own business that'd be pretty fucking cool....but you gotta do business/money shit and yea....idk how well that will go..fucking a...and i really dont wanna drop out..cuz yea...i wanna go to college sooner or later or something....but yea...this is too fucking much..and i could always get my GED or something..but idk..i'm a senior and i should just keep going..fucking a..idk waht to do..and idk if my mom would sign shit for me. bullshit. arghhhhhhhhhhhhh so yea..on the upside..i have really fucking awesome friends..and they;re soooo fun..yep..and i enjoy being free...yep..but as many friends as i have i am still fucking lonely sometimes...like i really want a boyfriend..or jsut to love someone..and someone to take care of me...and i doubt any highschool boy would be mature enough to fill that shit....ughh and college kids are crazy..and ikd...sometimes i really dont like people...w/e...................who knows.
yea. and i really enjoy not having crazy christians breathing down my neck...its really goood...but God's cool...
oh yea..i don't know that i'm loved. i have love for myself but that's about it...and yea...my life is crazy as hell right now....but i'm just going where the wind blows..a;dghaoirhgoiathgn
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i moved out of my house about a week ago..i've been spending the night at friends houses> mainly jazz's..<3<3 like a sister, indeed. i'm working my ass off..and idk what to do about school.it's such bullshit. i have three tardy's...and now i have to go to asd thursday....and i'm ready to fucking leave..it's fucking ridiculous....i'm so ready to drop out but you have to have parent permission or some shit. ARGH!?>! so yea....i talked to my mom for the first time in the past week or so...she's cool that i moved out..told me i should reconsider coming home..but fuck that shit... i'm not going to get yelled at anymore...for nothing....and love the indepedence that i have right now. i mean, it's kinda hard...and really fucking stressful..but i love it. i can't wait to get my own place..hardee's is going well..i'm getting pretty good hours..and i hope to be able to pay for everything...i really need a tune up on my car..but maybe daddy will help with that..he knows like everything about cars. i haven't been on AIM in a while..and i miss everyone muchos! <3 yea..school is really going crazy..i'm in art right now..i'm done with everything...like i want to drop psychology..1st period...sleeeep...but i dont really even want to come back...i hate all of this shit..and i'm so gonna fail ushistory..but it's an honours class...so yea...bullshit. idk...i want to have good grades and do well..but it's just not going so great. i want to be an art teacher or an elementary teacher..but yea..supporting schoool...hellz naw. or if i could own my own business that'd be pretty fucking cool....but you gotta do business/money shit and yea....idk how well that will go..fucking a...and i really dont wanna drop out..cuz yea...i wanna go to college sooner or later or something....but yea...this is too fucking much..and i could always get my GED or something..but idk..i'm a senior and i should just keep going..fucking a..idk waht to do..and idk if my mom would sign shit for me. bullshit. arghhhhhhhhhhhhh so yea..on the upside..i have really fucking awesome friends..and they;re soooo fun..yep..and i enjoy being free...yep..but as many friends as i have i am still fucking lonely sometimes...like i really want a boyfriend..or jsut to love someone..and someone to take care of me...and i doubt any highschool boy would be mature enough to fill that shit....ughh and college kids are crazy..and ikd...sometimes i really dont like people...w/e...................who knows.
yea. and i really enjoy not having crazy christians breathing down my neck...its really goood...but God's cool...
oh yea..i don't know that i'm loved. i have love for myself but that's about it...and yea...my life is crazy as hell right now....but i'm just going where the wind blows..a;dghaoirhgoiathgn
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