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[myinnocence]

so this is why suicide isn't worth it. cuz if you do, there's more life..i believe so anyhow. what's the fucking point....i've been struggling iwth tthe thought of killing myself for about..yea since i was 12..so about 5 years..and well..i havent figured out why i couldnt do it until now..i was such a pussy..and now i know that its not fukcing worth it..you still have to put with shit later and that pisses me the fuck off.
and yea...mountian trip this weekend..i hope it doesnt suck...i just want to be fucked up the whole itme....yea...blah.