eh...
I am still having a rough time of it. I want to be anywhere but here. Okay, I want to be floating in a huge hot bath listening to smooth jazz and meditating on freedom.
Between the stress and horrible eating choices I've been making, I am not sleeping well and I've landed somewhere I've not been in a while. In the middle of a flair. I know I have shared the Spoon Theory before but a good friend mslindz recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia has written an excellent personal account.
I know I am partly to blame for why I am in such as state. I know I can't eat crappy food, but rarely. I know I do so much better when I am eating consciously and not carrying so much weight. I do so much better when I am moving. I have a feeling that I've gained 10 -15 pounds in the last month, going up yet another pant size. In other words, I have gained every single pound that I had lost, rather steadily in the past year.
I know I can't do anything about the stress at work besides quit. Not going to happen. A) I love my job. I have never had one that uses my talents so well. B) Jobs with such extremely flexible hours are non-existent. C) Not to mention the excellent pay and lack of dress code. I can suck in up for a couple more months, when I'll get the budget to hire folks and a raise.
What do I need to do? Stop being a weenie, get my butt to Weight Watchers and go hardcore on the Core.
I did it on my own once (lost 75 - 80 pounds), but I think I need the support of a group, this time around. And I know a couple people coughRobcough who could come with me.
So this sized 24 chica is going to go to the WW meeting next Wednesday in Groton at 4. (Would go tomorrow but have made plans already)
We have a windfall coming in the next couple of weeks (how we are getting the new car's down payment) and I think part of it needs to go to a freezer so I can start freezing serving sized portions again. One of the reasons we've been eating so much fast food is because I just don't want to cook when I come home feeling like shit even when I have a meal plan. And I am definitely going with the large veggie/fruit box bi-weekly.
And another excellent blog entry from another friend not on LJ. What Are You Manifesting? I just had to share.
Between the stress and horrible eating choices I've been making, I am not sleeping well and I've landed somewhere I've not been in a while. In the middle of a flair. I know I have shared the Spoon Theory before but a good friend mslindz recently diagnosed with Fibromyalgia has written an excellent personal account.
I know I am partly to blame for why I am in such as state. I know I can't eat crappy food, but rarely. I know I do so much better when I am eating consciously and not carrying so much weight. I do so much better when I am moving. I have a feeling that I've gained 10 -15 pounds in the last month, going up yet another pant size. In other words, I have gained every single pound that I had lost, rather steadily in the past year.
I know I can't do anything about the stress at work besides quit. Not going to happen. A) I love my job. I have never had one that uses my talents so well. B) Jobs with such extremely flexible hours are non-existent. C) Not to mention the excellent pay and lack of dress code. I can suck in up for a couple more months, when I'll get the budget to hire folks and a raise.
What do I need to do? Stop being a weenie, get my butt to Weight Watchers and go hardcore on the Core.
I did it on my own once (lost 75 - 80 pounds), but I think I need the support of a group, this time around. And I know a couple people coughRobcough who could come with me.
So this sized 24 chica is going to go to the WW meeting next Wednesday in Groton at 4. (Would go tomorrow but have made plans already)
We have a windfall coming in the next couple of weeks (how we are getting the new car's down payment) and I think part of it needs to go to a freezer so I can start freezing serving sized portions again. One of the reasons we've been eating so much fast food is because I just don't want to cook when I come home feeling like shit even when I have a meal plan. And I am definitely going with the large veggie/fruit box bi-weekly.
And another excellent blog entry from another friend not on LJ. What Are You Manifesting? I just had to share.