more venting

[myhrtisinmotion]

when am i going to have another positive entry?
ever?
i need to scream.
a lot.
right now.
i'm sick of fighting with my dad.
i'm sick of living with my parents again.
i'm sick of missing people.
i'm sick of going off on jon.
i want to dye my hair.
i wish brooke was here to do it with me.
i want to cut my hair.
i wish i trusted myself enough to cut the back.
i want to stop smoking.
i wish i could stop smoking.
i don't want to be in debt anymore.
i want to stop spending my money like it's nothing.
my left botton wisdom tooth is cutting in more.
my gums hurt.
my guitar is collecting dust.
i need a drink.
an alcoholic one.
just one.
any kind.
i haven't drank since my birthday.
i'm going to go get my puppy.
she makes me happy.
i need happiness right now.
tomorrow will be better.