frogs and dogs were raining from the sky...
so, everyone is annoying me. everything is a mess in my life. nothing is worth anything and i'm just a pile of depressed flesh.
my mom left for the philippines. she's going to be there for another couple weeks or so. but in her absence i've been paying some of the bills and i've had hardly any money signs to spare. also, in the last month, cj stopped working for his uncle. he got his last paycheck and we've been frugle about spending it but he's all mad that he's had to buy some food for billy. he's all annoyed and being an asshole. cuz, y'know... i wasn't buying him food when he quit his job. i've been supporting him every effing slow season and he gets all upset cuz he has to spend some of his money helping my little brother. . . lame. lame lame lame...
so, i guess i'm going to pay him back for feeding billy those few times and from now on, i'll only feed billy and myself and he can find his own food. whatever... he might give me rides to places and stuff, but i pay gas. if it wasn't for me, he'd never have any effing gas in his effing car.
yeah, i've decided i'm just not going to rely on him for anything and ask for nothing. i'm just done with this stupid game. if he wants to be a dick, he can be a dick without me.
the most annoying thing is that when i help him, i do it cuz i love him and i don't expect anything back. i don't talk about it all the time to make hime feel bad. but when i ask him to help me out or help my little brother, he acts like it's such a big deal. like he has to go out of his way or put down something important when he has NOTHING going on anyways.
i've been working five days a week and i still have other responsibilities to take care of. but he's the one that's troubled... yeah, right. it's just such bull... all i'm feeling is anger and i'm just so irritated.
k, so my little brother said he didn't have any food at the house. we fed him a couple times. cj paid cuz i had no money, i paid the phone bill and other stuff. last night we went over there to use the washing machine and there was food. yeah, i can see how it can be a little irritating. but i said i'd talk to billy and i did. i told him that if he needs help cooking food then he can call me. i explained how right now, with the money situation, that it's just easier for me to help him cook than to take him out to eat all the time. i told cj all of this. but when we went over there today, cj was still acting like a dick and talking shit. i'm just like, what do you want me to do? i talked to him! what? but i guess i'm just going to pay him back and let that be that.
erg.... i'm just so frustrated with him..
besides that, my older brother was supposed to help me out with the whole phone bill thing. its a family plan and he's on it. he should give me $150 but i asked for $100 or at least $50. he gave me nothing. he kept saying, i'll come up and give you some cash... and then he said, oh, well i'll have to deposit it into your account cuz i can't come up there this week. and it was all B effing S.
stupid men.
cj's a douche and robert's totally worthless to me.
it just sucks. i'm just so angry right now. i hate them. i hate them very much so.
my mom left for the philippines. she's going to be there for another couple weeks or so. but in her absence i've been paying some of the bills and i've had hardly any money signs to spare. also, in the last month, cj stopped working for his uncle. he got his last paycheck and we've been frugle about spending it but he's all mad that he's had to buy some food for billy. he's all annoyed and being an asshole. cuz, y'know... i wasn't buying him food when he quit his job. i've been supporting him every effing slow season and he gets all upset cuz he has to spend some of his money helping my little brother. . . lame. lame lame lame...
so, i guess i'm going to pay him back for feeding billy those few times and from now on, i'll only feed billy and myself and he can find his own food. whatever... he might give me rides to places and stuff, but i pay gas. if it wasn't for me, he'd never have any effing gas in his effing car.
yeah, i've decided i'm just not going to rely on him for anything and ask for nothing. i'm just done with this stupid game. if he wants to be a dick, he can be a dick without me.
the most annoying thing is that when i help him, i do it cuz i love him and i don't expect anything back. i don't talk about it all the time to make hime feel bad. but when i ask him to help me out or help my little brother, he acts like it's such a big deal. like he has to go out of his way or put down something important when he has NOTHING going on anyways.
i've been working five days a week and i still have other responsibilities to take care of. but he's the one that's troubled... yeah, right. it's just such bull... all i'm feeling is anger and i'm just so irritated.
k, so my little brother said he didn't have any food at the house. we fed him a couple times. cj paid cuz i had no money, i paid the phone bill and other stuff. last night we went over there to use the washing machine and there was food. yeah, i can see how it can be a little irritating. but i said i'd talk to billy and i did. i told him that if he needs help cooking food then he can call me. i explained how right now, with the money situation, that it's just easier for me to help him cook than to take him out to eat all the time. i told cj all of this. but when we went over there today, cj was still acting like a dick and talking shit. i'm just like, what do you want me to do? i talked to him! what? but i guess i'm just going to pay him back and let that be that.
erg.... i'm just so frustrated with him..
besides that, my older brother was supposed to help me out with the whole phone bill thing. its a family plan and he's on it. he should give me $150 but i asked for $100 or at least $50. he gave me nothing. he kept saying, i'll come up and give you some cash... and then he said, oh, well i'll have to deposit it into your account cuz i can't come up there this week. and it was all B effing S.
stupid men.
cj's a douche and robert's totally worthless to me.
it just sucks. i'm just so angry right now. i hate them. i hate them very much so.