the greasy fry, it never lies. it's truth is written in your thigh!
so i decided to fast way hardcore till at least my birthday. cuz really my new year starts on my day... get it? well...
i've been really stuck on body image as of late. and how i'm not happy with mine. i can fix that though. with perserverence (sp?) and persistence. tomorrow i'm going to go work out... and then on tuesday i'm going with my good friend/co-worker erin to work out. it's easier to fast when you keep a busy schedule. but yeah. i feel like gaining any more weight is the scariest thing in the world right now. i just want to be one of the pretty people. it's kinda true about how all the people who say beauty is on the inside are all ugly people. and i'm tired of being one of those people. no matter how much you don't want it, no matter how much you say it's not true, people (friends, foes, passerbys) will judge you immediately on your appearence. and no matter how wrong that is, it happens. and there's nothing i can do cept put my game face on.
i feel like the less physically attractive i am, the smarter i have to be to make it in the world. and i'm not a smart person. i'm not clever or witty. i'm not articulate (i had trouble typing that word out) or anything. so it's like i'll lose. so i just wanna be the best there is. what's wrong with that? so yeah...
i just think that it's time for me to start taking responsibility and stop making up excuses for myself... i've finally realized how dumb i've been...
i've been really stuck on body image as of late. and how i'm not happy with mine. i can fix that though. with perserverence (sp?) and persistence. tomorrow i'm going to go work out... and then on tuesday i'm going with my good friend/co-worker erin to work out. it's easier to fast when you keep a busy schedule. but yeah. i feel like gaining any more weight is the scariest thing in the world right now. i just want to be one of the pretty people. it's kinda true about how all the people who say beauty is on the inside are all ugly people. and i'm tired of being one of those people. no matter how much you don't want it, no matter how much you say it's not true, people (friends, foes, passerbys) will judge you immediately on your appearence. and no matter how wrong that is, it happens. and there's nothing i can do cept put my game face on.
i feel like the less physically attractive i am, the smarter i have to be to make it in the world. and i'm not a smart person. i'm not clever or witty. i'm not articulate (i had trouble typing that word out) or anything. so it's like i'll lose. so i just wanna be the best there is. what's wrong with that? so yeah...
i just think that it's time for me to start taking responsibility and stop making up excuses for myself... i've finally realized how dumb i've been...