So...would you want to go back to my house and watch Back to the Future 2?
As always - it's been a while. I think my internet is finally back up and working again though, so that's always a good thing.
Classes. Going alright. Not a whole lot else to say there, and I'm starting to wish I had picked a different topic for my senior soc project, and while I'm sure there's time to change it and it wouldn't be a huge inconvience (though more than a small one) I won't. I still like my topic, and what I am thinking about (something about juvenile hate crimes) probably wouldn't even be doable. Oh well.
I really really really don't like one of my roommates. Like a whole lot don't like him. At least there's the mutual not liking each other understanding so we just don't talk to each other anymore unless we really have to. And I really really really don't like that his girlfriend is always over here. Even when he's not. Seriously - she lives 4 houses away. Go over there sometime.
I think this year has been the universe's way of punishing (for lack of a better word) me for not being interested in/pursuing pretty much anyone for the past 2 years. So the Aaron thing is done. Beyond done actually. When he said 'sometimes I feel like I blew my one chance at a normal family' that should have been a red flag. A few weeks later when he said 'I feel like I'm damaged goods' that should have also been one. When he told me I was like a cousin, that was it. I knew he was fucked up, quite possibly the most messed up person I've ever met when it comes to relationships (and that's saying quite a bit), but that was more than I could handle. I still think he's awesome though and really want to be his friend...if I could just get a monthly voicemail from him or something, that would even be ok, becuase they are truly some of the funniest things I've ever heard. And I know he's a very highly functioning pot smoker, and it doesn't bother me in general is people smoke, but still. He takes it to a new level I feel. Looking back, the only times I'm sure I've seen him totally sober were in the mornings when I slept over there.
So continuing the boy chat. Rick. Oh dear. After I realized the Aaron thing was bad news bears I had psyched myself up and thought - I'm going to ask Rick out. I knew he liked me (or at least thought I was hot...), and since it was already awkward (or I perceived it to be so) since we kept running nito them at the Bodega, why not be the big girl and just ask him out. So I did. I really never gave guys enough credit for doing it. So awful. I'm surprised anyone would put themselves through that repeatedly. He actually kept my number from when Marissa and I went back with them to Nick's apartment which kind of surprised me. It also surprised me that I actually was able to write it down legibly and correctly considering how incredibly drunk and stoned I was at the time. Anyway. Ran into him and Nick and their friend at the Bodega (of course) last week and had what turned out to be, without a doubt, the most fun night I've ever had downtown. Marissa and Laura pretty much told Nick that they should make me come wherever they go because they were leaving and Marissa and Laura didn't want to go. Nick's response - we'll make sure someone takes her home...and it won't be me or Josh. Awkward. Went to John's with them. Actually had a real conversation with Rick, which I don't think we had done before...one that didn't involve photo-hunt related matters at least. Went back to his house after, which compared to some houses I've been to lately was strikingly normal. So we started watching some TV and that was it. After about 15 minutes of just that I was really starting to wonder if he really took me home and that was all we were going to do. But don't worry kids - all the awkward flirting and whatnot was not in vain. Made out for a while on the couch then went to his room. Now, I know it's silly that I'm an adult and sleep on a twin bed. But what could be more ridiculous than that? Really? An air mattress. Oh yes. He told me his bed got left somewhere since he moved around a lot hte past few months...that was about all I got. I don't think I want to know more. Air mattress. What is that? Now at least I can check off having sex while camping off my life to-do list (it was never on there, but you know...) since I'm sure it would be pretty much the same. This is probably entirely too much information as it is, but I'll just add one more thing. It was very good. I was pleasantly surprised.
Other news...Lynnay asked me to be a bridesmaid, which I'm all kinds of excited about. The wedding isn't till next June but I'm still so happy for her and Ben. Still terrified about graduation. Not liking my job a whole lot, but it could be worse. I need to start looking around for something better. My hair smells like smoke. Gross.
That's all for now. I really should go to sleep.
Classes. Going alright. Not a whole lot else to say there, and I'm starting to wish I had picked a different topic for my senior soc project, and while I'm sure there's time to change it and it wouldn't be a huge inconvience (though more than a small one) I won't. I still like my topic, and what I am thinking about (something about juvenile hate crimes) probably wouldn't even be doable. Oh well.
I really really really don't like one of my roommates. Like a whole lot don't like him. At least there's the mutual not liking each other understanding so we just don't talk to each other anymore unless we really have to. And I really really really don't like that his girlfriend is always over here. Even when he's not. Seriously - she lives 4 houses away. Go over there sometime.
I think this year has been the universe's way of punishing (for lack of a better word) me for not being interested in/pursuing pretty much anyone for the past 2 years. So the Aaron thing is done. Beyond done actually. When he said 'sometimes I feel like I blew my one chance at a normal family' that should have been a red flag. A few weeks later when he said 'I feel like I'm damaged goods' that should have also been one. When he told me I was like a cousin, that was it. I knew he was fucked up, quite possibly the most messed up person I've ever met when it comes to relationships (and that's saying quite a bit), but that was more than I could handle. I still think he's awesome though and really want to be his friend...if I could just get a monthly voicemail from him or something, that would even be ok, becuase they are truly some of the funniest things I've ever heard. And I know he's a very highly functioning pot smoker, and it doesn't bother me in general is people smoke, but still. He takes it to a new level I feel. Looking back, the only times I'm sure I've seen him totally sober were in the mornings when I slept over there.
So continuing the boy chat. Rick. Oh dear. After I realized the Aaron thing was bad news bears I had psyched myself up and thought - I'm going to ask Rick out. I knew he liked me (or at least thought I was hot...), and since it was already awkward (or I perceived it to be so) since we kept running nito them at the Bodega, why not be the big girl and just ask him out. So I did. I really never gave guys enough credit for doing it. So awful. I'm surprised anyone would put themselves through that repeatedly. He actually kept my number from when Marissa and I went back with them to Nick's apartment which kind of surprised me. It also surprised me that I actually was able to write it down legibly and correctly considering how incredibly drunk and stoned I was at the time. Anyway. Ran into him and Nick and their friend at the Bodega (of course) last week and had what turned out to be, without a doubt, the most fun night I've ever had downtown. Marissa and Laura pretty much told Nick that they should make me come wherever they go because they were leaving and Marissa and Laura didn't want to go. Nick's response - we'll make sure someone takes her home...and it won't be me or Josh. Awkward. Went to John's with them. Actually had a real conversation with Rick, which I don't think we had done before...one that didn't involve photo-hunt related matters at least. Went back to his house after, which compared to some houses I've been to lately was strikingly normal. So we started watching some TV and that was it. After about 15 minutes of just that I was really starting to wonder if he really took me home and that was all we were going to do. But don't worry kids - all the awkward flirting and whatnot was not in vain. Made out for a while on the couch then went to his room. Now, I know it's silly that I'm an adult and sleep on a twin bed. But what could be more ridiculous than that? Really? An air mattress. Oh yes. He told me his bed got left somewhere since he moved around a lot hte past few months...that was about all I got. I don't think I want to know more. Air mattress. What is that? Now at least I can check off having sex while camping off my life to-do list (it was never on there, but you know...) since I'm sure it would be pretty much the same. This is probably entirely too much information as it is, but I'll just add one more thing. It was very good. I was pleasantly surprised.
Other news...Lynnay asked me to be a bridesmaid, which I'm all kinds of excited about. The wedding isn't till next June but I'm still so happy for her and Ben. Still terrified about graduation. Not liking my job a whole lot, but it could be worse. I need to start looking around for something better. My hair smells like smoke. Gross.
That's all for now. I really should go to sleep.