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One Small Choice
Audiovent
Sometimes
I wonder how it all would be
If only one thing happened differently
And time will tell
What will become of us
One small choice
Just one small choice
And what if I had never decided this?
Would I be here?
Or be gone?
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
Sometimes
I wonder what it's like to fly
So easy
One small choice could end my life
I'd take the second chance
To make things right
Just one small choice
And what if I had never decided this?
Would I be here?
Or be gone?
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
Need it
Feed it
Can't re-seed it
Why?
What if I had never decided this?
Would I be here?
Or be gone?
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
Bad week. New manager at work, due to the old one that walked out three days before inventory, leaving us with six employees for the event. Stacie is the new one's name, and she's not so cool. Most people seem to like her, but I don't. Not too sure why, but I usually am accurate with my first impressions, and she had a bad one on me. After work Wednesday I had church, and I somehow ended up not leaving until 10:30, which gave me not enough time to write two essays, do calc and, oh yes, sleep. Thursday was the blood drive, and that was disappointing. I couldn't give blood. My iron level and red blood cell count were both too low. My parents were dramatic about it after finding out and want me to get a blood test now; they think I'm anemic or something. I'm stressing out about Diversity Club, as usual, and more than anxious to leave for college. I want to leave now. I'm sick of my parents being...parent-y. Today I got mad at my mom for volunteering me to drive Annie to her friend's house, without asking me first, when my mom wasn't even home for me to tell her I couldn't. So I had to wear a wet shirt to work because it wasn't finished being dried when I had to leave to drop off Annie at her friend's. Later, when I asked her to ask me first from now on, she told me that that's why I have a car: to help her. And on top of everything, a check for $45 is MIA right now, and I really need the money. That is stressing me out like crazy right now. I can't afford to not work or to do anything, when all I want to do is be able to enjoy my senior year. But I'm not, because I'm too busy working to pay for my gas to get to school, and worrying about how I'll afford surviving next year in college, and therefore trying to fill out scholarship forms between calc and NHS and every other fucking thing I do. I wonder why I don't know how to say no. I don't even have time to go to church anymore lately. I was excited because I could go tomorrow, for the first time in weeks, but then, oh right, I have to babysit at my family's church. It's horrible when my friend still has a christmas present to give me because I haven't seen him recently for him to give it to me. And with all of the things I wish I could stop doing, there's one thing that I wish I could do more, and that's the one thing that keeps finding a way to avoid me...
Audiovent
Sometimes
I wonder how it all would be
If only one thing happened differently
And time will tell
What will become of us
One small choice
Just one small choice
And what if I had never decided this?
Would I be here?
Or be gone?
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
Sometimes
I wonder what it's like to fly
So easy
One small choice could end my life
I'd take the second chance
To make things right
Just one small choice
And what if I had never decided this?
Would I be here?
Or be gone?
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
Need it
Feed it
Can't re-seed it
Why?
What if I had never decided this?
Would I be here?
Or be gone?
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
And all I've ever wanted
Was just to see how it would be
One small choice
Bad week. New manager at work, due to the old one that walked out three days before inventory, leaving us with six employees for the event. Stacie is the new one's name, and she's not so cool. Most people seem to like her, but I don't. Not too sure why, but I usually am accurate with my first impressions, and she had a bad one on me. After work Wednesday I had church, and I somehow ended up not leaving until 10:30, which gave me not enough time to write two essays, do calc and, oh yes, sleep. Thursday was the blood drive, and that was disappointing. I couldn't give blood. My iron level and red blood cell count were both too low. My parents were dramatic about it after finding out and want me to get a blood test now; they think I'm anemic or something. I'm stressing out about Diversity Club, as usual, and more than anxious to leave for college. I want to leave now. I'm sick of my parents being...parent-y. Today I got mad at my mom for volunteering me to drive Annie to her friend's house, without asking me first, when my mom wasn't even home for me to tell her I couldn't. So I had to wear a wet shirt to work because it wasn't finished being dried when I had to leave to drop off Annie at her friend's. Later, when I asked her to ask me first from now on, she told me that that's why I have a car: to help her. And on top of everything, a check for $45 is MIA right now, and I really need the money. That is stressing me out like crazy right now. I can't afford to not work or to do anything, when all I want to do is be able to enjoy my senior year. But I'm not, because I'm too busy working to pay for my gas to get to school, and worrying about how I'll afford surviving next year in college, and therefore trying to fill out scholarship forms between calc and NHS and every other fucking thing I do. I wonder why I don't know how to say no. I don't even have time to go to church anymore lately. I was excited because I could go tomorrow, for the first time in weeks, but then, oh right, I have to babysit at my family's church. It's horrible when my friend still has a christmas present to give me because I haven't seen him recently for him to give it to me. And with all of the things I wish I could stop doing, there's one thing that I wish I could do more, and that's the one thing that keeps finding a way to avoid me...