a long day
well its sure been a long day things were going ok last night i sent paul a msg asking him if he wanted to be more then friends so who knows well heres what happend things went ok i went with brian to get mom and then jammie had to be there picking up brian i thought i was getting better untill i saw him i compleatly clammed up then after i got home paul called from the hospital for brian he cut open his hand so brian went to get him and take him home and brian came home and told me with everything going on last week pauls car compleatly crapping out hes buying a new one now his hand he needs time to think what he wants to do so ya i dono i cant say ill be thrilled if he does but i wont hold my breath on it let say that it seems that the guys i like dont like me also talking to gabe she thinks james likes me oh no i had a dream about him and was thinking about him reciently luckily for me hes in love with her so i think im safe for now i hope well who knows i hope things go well with pauli dono theres something about him i liked him the day i met him and theres something there a spark that was never there with darren till we got close i feel that spark with paul now and ya hes older by like ten years he does have a kid but none of that bothers me when i get close i get all tingly and safe its mmm ok well ill let u know when i know more