problems again
Hi Girls...
Again I havnt been on here in along time. Almost a month... and guess why? Got caught. Gained 2 lbs. I still have 10 to lose to get to my 100 lb mark.
Before I went to florida, my boyfriend decided that he would tell me "Unless you gain 5 lbs we are not going. Im not gona have you have a heart attack on the ride"
I cried and begged and told him I was fine. But then he whipped out my blood results and well...How did he get them? Still do not know. So, I did what I do best. Gained 2 lbs, and started to stack on the clothing to make it look like more. He said I look "sickly" and to me, I look like im one thousand pounds.
We went to blizzard beach and I watched these disgusting fat women walk around in bikinis with all their wobbily bits hanging about. And I thought to myself...Is that what I look like? (I was wearing a tank and long board shorts...I used the "I thought this was the park with the surf boards" excuse).
What can I say? Im back. And I have to be sneakier and sneakier. I filled three bottles of regular soda with diet cola. I changed the cookies with sugar free low cal ones...that look like the real thing.
I dont know what to do though. Ive never seen him like that. And I know everyone is thinking the same thing...
Hope you are all okay... let me know, keep me updated!!