ah crap.
I've finally figured it out. I'm in love with my best friend. And I want to be with him. But I don't know if he wants to be with me too. And I don't know how to tell him I want to be with him. Ah shit. I want to tell him. And we would both be ridiculed about the age difference. My mom will flip. His friends at work will say I'm too young for him. Yeah so what? Age doesn't really matter. What matters is how we feel and if I'm mature enough to be with him, and he's mature enough to want me. Then that's that. Now all I have to do is tell him how I feel.