wow.
I haven't used this thing in forever. Wow. Last time I used it was in effin' November. Damn it's been forever. I still feel like a little girl sometimes. I hear the bass from a car and think it's Danny coming over to my house, or I'll hear the loud revving sound from a car and think it's him. I still get all giddy when I talk to Austin, but there's nothing left for him and me. And I still want to be with him, but I also like Josh. But I'm second. I can remember how long ago I started being second. I've always been second. I want to be first for once. With Austin I was second to Mell, now I'm second to Melissa (but she's done as far as I can tell). And with Josh I'm second to Tee. Damn it. Love Josh to death, but he's a bit older than I am and I can't wait around for him. Wait. And Zac likes me too. Amanda's ex. He's talking about us being together in the future and I don't want to wait for that shit either. Plus he's Amanda's ex. I dunno. I'm not one for talking about the future right now. I want the present to be as much fun as possible. Well, I gotta go and do something about my eyeball.