from bad to good.
'when you feel so tired, but you cant sleep.
stuck in reverse.'
in my thoughts, but the trail of tears is there. the tears don't flow. just look through blurred numbed vision. when i slept i felt no hurt, only to wake and feel it all in my body.
i have no idea what all went so wrong! i cant even put it together. its like a puzzle, and i just cant let it go. isnt that how is should be?
'your too in love to let it go
but if you never try uou never know.'
it haunts you. your afraid to appear weak. you seek the love around you.you keep pushing out...keep pushing out...but every now and then it all rushes in again. when someone was too dear to let them go out that way. when all you want to say is "i love you so much.. ill always be here for you," you say the opposite in actions, and you stumble on your own feet! and its hysterical. its non-sensical. what can i say--that's hurt. and we gotta just let goo! but it's hard!!
these moments leave me wondering if i will endure more heartwrrenching lessons of love in this lifetime. i guess i'm on this rollercoaster! strapped in and, well, wishin i had a hand to hold, but regardless its ok, its bound to be a thriller. I guess when you love another enough they become an essence of your being. and it may be healthy to part. but with anything other than love?? that's my question. the pain has to go soon, so i can just continue to wish good intent. i have no answers, just moving with the ebb and flow, the moment, putting one foot in front of the other. i guess the truth is , is that i still have so much emotion into it. but please dont take me and discard me because of my emotion. i found out that emotions are a great vibration, they mean a lot more than words sometimes. 4:07. im making progress everyday, its just like a rainy moment of the day, but the majority of the day is sunny. its one of those real reflective moments.
church sucked a bit today(lectures and words seemed more dividing than inviting), but it was still nice to be with my friends. Wes and I made it through the day, on no sleep. my heart hurt pretty bad, we were gonna call off. i feel a bit better. i just woke up from my nap and felt all emo n crap, wtf man :P just always helps to let it off my chest.*Wheew* night night
**oh and i always believe we have a choice, its never to late for much of anything.
our starbucks logan is that were nocturnal, we like to work in the dark, because we dont sleep on caffeiene, how silly would that be. i was just laughin tonight when we were workin in the dark.
Mariah
stuck in reverse.'
in my thoughts, but the trail of tears is there. the tears don't flow. just look through blurred numbed vision. when i slept i felt no hurt, only to wake and feel it all in my body.
i have no idea what all went so wrong! i cant even put it together. its like a puzzle, and i just cant let it go. isnt that how is should be?
'your too in love to let it go
but if you never try uou never know.'
it haunts you. your afraid to appear weak. you seek the love around you.you keep pushing out...keep pushing out...but every now and then it all rushes in again. when someone was too dear to let them go out that way. when all you want to say is "i love you so much.. ill always be here for you," you say the opposite in actions, and you stumble on your own feet! and its hysterical. its non-sensical. what can i say--that's hurt. and we gotta just let goo! but it's hard!!
these moments leave me wondering if i will endure more heartwrrenching lessons of love in this lifetime. i guess i'm on this rollercoaster! strapped in and, well, wishin i had a hand to hold, but regardless its ok, its bound to be a thriller. I guess when you love another enough they become an essence of your being. and it may be healthy to part. but with anything other than love?? that's my question. the pain has to go soon, so i can just continue to wish good intent. i have no answers, just moving with the ebb and flow, the moment, putting one foot in front of the other. i guess the truth is , is that i still have so much emotion into it. but please dont take me and discard me because of my emotion. i found out that emotions are a great vibration, they mean a lot more than words sometimes. 4:07. im making progress everyday, its just like a rainy moment of the day, but the majority of the day is sunny. its one of those real reflective moments.
church sucked a bit today(lectures and words seemed more dividing than inviting), but it was still nice to be with my friends. Wes and I made it through the day, on no sleep. my heart hurt pretty bad, we were gonna call off. i feel a bit better. i just woke up from my nap and felt all emo n crap, wtf man :P just always helps to let it off my chest.*Wheew* night night
**oh and i always believe we have a choice, its never to late for much of anything.
our starbucks logan is that were nocturnal, we like to work in the dark, because we dont sleep on caffeiene, how silly would that be. i was just laughin tonight when we were workin in the dark.
Mariah