Give love a second chance..
It's so crazy. My day can totally completely suck, but when I talk to him, I feel good. I mean, I know that I'm going to have my days when I miss Manny but this guy completely makes me forget him. I love being able to talk to him and hear his voice, his laugh, his sarcastic comments. Spinks, you know bout him. He's the Hispanic guy I told u about. Anyway, I met him about a month ago, and we've been talking everynight, or pretty much everynight. He gets online after he finishes his homework and we talk. It's so great. I mean, this guy is so cool. My last entry was about how not having Manny makes me sad, and it does but this guy makes it better. I mean, I can be so sad, but once I hear his voice, I am completely happy again. I really am starting to like this guy. Not crush on, but LIKE. A lot. Kinda the way I felt about Manny at first. The only thing that I dont like is that I feel completely vulnerable. Like this guy can hurt me the way Manny did. This guy is really taking his place, and that is a great feeling. I just have that fear in the back.. that's holding me back. Is it wrong of me to be so afraid? or is it more wrong that I am getting over Manny? I feel bad sometimes because when I talk to Jesus (yeah, thats his name) I completely forget about Manny. Manny no longer exists. It's such an awesome feeling.. the pain is gone. Completely gone. and I love it. Instead of that pain, i feel giddy. and happy. and completely different. I like this guy a lot.