I cant save you from yourself... you got to want all thats left

[my_vacant_heart]

so whats up with the bickering in my lj...
if someone has a problem with someone else take it to your own live journal...THANKS...or the talking shit that can leave now!!!

so today

+ I got the van
- had to take dad to train at 6ish
- had to take sean at 7ish
- had to take colleen at 8ish
+ me cathy and jess made smores at culinary today
+ only 3 periods today out at 12 thirtyish
+ made a 90 on eng exam and raised my grade to a high A
+ made a 97 on my speech exam and hopefully raised my grade to an A
+ got minutes
+ cashed check
- worked
- went to leave work and van wouldnt start
- spent hella money to get it to run and it didnt work!!
- - - sister ran it out of fucking gas again!!!

so today I learn alittle late but finally
That # 1 I'm never gonna be good enough for anyone
case in point : once I'm good enough to date you find someone better then me
once I'm good enough to be your bestfriend you find someone better then me
once I'm good enough to be your daughter you find someone better then me
once I'm good enough to.... and the list keeps going
and going and going

so I'm feeling so helpless right now I'm kinda disappointed at the moment in my relatives and everyone else...
this week is suposed to be exciting but its not
+ tech center cook out tomarrow goin with cathy and jess and candy
+ I get the van
+ I get out at 11
+ last day
+ german exam only
+ jessica comes soon
+ my birthday soon

oh well, I'll just try and smile so you can stay sane...