Pray for Courtney.....
I think it's time to bring this to an end. I can't take the 'neglect' anymore. After all this time, I think I am finally realizing that it just isn't going to work out. I think for the last few months, we have just been in denial. It KILLS me that we can't just talk about it and get our feelings out in the open, but that's part of the problem. We can't talk to eachother. We have never been totally open with eachother. I'm not an emotional person, but as time goes on, and I grow, I am becoming more aware of the fact that I need to express my feelings, and I can't in this situation.
I mean, it's great when it's great, but when it's bad, man, I just wish that I would just end it right then and there. But then I think of the awesome times that we have and all the good times to come, and I think to myself, 'KT, you can deal with the bad things, because the good things are so much more important.' But now, as I sit here and think(never a good thing), I am just totally confused. I think I know what I'm supposed to do, but I just love him so much that I don't want to. I dunno....someone help me before I do something rash.
~*KT*~
I mean, it's great when it's great, but when it's bad, man, I just wish that I would just end it right then and there. But then I think of the awesome times that we have and all the good times to come, and I think to myself, 'KT, you can deal with the bad things, because the good things are so much more important.' But now, as I sit here and think(never a good thing), I am just totally confused. I think I know what I'm supposed to do, but I just love him so much that I don't want to. I dunno....someone help me before I do something rash.
~*KT*~