Nov 03, 2005 12:16
I feel so slow today, I feel like there is this huge fog around my head.
I need to stop drinking alcohol. It seems as though when I drink my judgement is so impared, and all I want is SEX SEX SEX! I don't even need to be that drunk and all I think about is SEX. It's weird, and it's been getting me in trouble.
Life is so crazy right now, so crazy. I feel like such a prisioner inside myself but at the same time I am so free.
I have no logic or reasoning inside of me. I just do what I do because I want to do it. Even if I do realize the consequences or the things that should push me away, I don't care about them, I do what I want.
This is one life, the only life that I have.
Sex seriously motivates and affects my every action. This is insane. I'm going insane.