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it's like 11 on sunday morning... kaylas upstairs still sleeping, i was woken up by a phone call and i unfortunatly have this problem where i can't fall back asleep if it's to bright. I think it may be a disease of some sort. So this weekend has been cool so far. The best part is it's not even over. Friday night hung out with margeux. we met up with jon roy and realized how much of the shit that kid is lmao. Went to justin's for a bit then went on to the hockey game. It was weird not being their for a specific someone, and not having to actually like watch the game. I still can'treally believe how much my life has changed in the last year. Like i look back on this past senior year and theirs so many things i wouldn't be able to be doing if i were going out with derek still. Like i just have so much more freedom and shit, it makes me not even want to get in another relationship ever again. There was a long heart to heart with margeux over all this nonsence... she understands my thoughts compleatly it's great. It sucks though because i get lonely and tell myself i want a relationship, or i want things to getm ore seriouse with me and byron... but like i cant let things get more serious. With any guy now i get to this certain point and then put up these walls. I can't bring myself to trust anyone. And like margeux said...even though things are all skrewed up now... i don't regret going out with derek. I got so much out of that relationship and it taught me so much. Maybe i regret the way it ended... but i don't regret the actual relationship... Anyway now on with more news and stiring away from the emoness. LAst night was supose to go to a family party but bailed and had a couple people over in stead. It was fun justin and ryan mancini came... and OF COARSE JON ROY lmao i can't get over how much people change that kid is fucking awesome and hysterical. Daelyn was there... she's engaged and coming back to scituate... Byron came... he broke his but bone i found that rather funny. I kicked everyone out early... because well 1 i got a little paranoid but two i wanted these 2certain people to leave and they wouldn't get the hint that i did not want them in my . house the kid was mad fuckin shady. I am excited for tonight... Hanging out with all the girls and having a good drunken time at jessica simpson's house. Im out for now... later.