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well so it's early in the morning and i have some time to kill before school. Wasn't even going to go to school today and give myself a nice long weekend... but my mom is also taking the day out, and i don't want to be in this house with her at all. So i actually was like awake this morning and didn't have to pop any caffine pills just to get me to the shower. I think i woke up maybe around 3 due to the wind outside my window... and the fact that i acidently left my window open again. I always seem to forget to shut it. Also the fact that i got about like 4 phone calls at 3 this morning from different people. I didn't mind it though, at that point i was at the point where i couldn't fall back asleep anyway. I did some pilates because, i never do them on fridays... saturdays...or sundays for that matter. Last night i watched blue crush, the last time i saw that was in theater's with margeux kristen and alanna. Back when we were talking to Ralph Linus and Frankie... It's so weird how people and things can change so quickly. Im going to them movies tnight that should be fun...me and margeux tried to go last week andwell that simply said did not end up happening. But anyway back to the point. I hate movies like that. Don't get me wrong it's an ok movie but like... it depresses me so friggen much seeing a screen full of hot chicks with perfect bodies. Makes me so jelouse and self concious.

So byron called me last ngiht... first time in a week. Forgetting about people is easier when they don't call. I don;t know what to believe from him or what to do... he's right i really do have no reason not to trust him. I think im just fucked up in the head and can't trust anyone with a penis. He ended up getting mad at me by the end of the conversation for some odd reason. But... we're good now.

Shit my ride is going to leave without me.