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i realise that for some obscure reason i surround myself with people who need constant explanations for everything, like those seagulls who always want food in 'finding nemo'.
whereas, my personality is such that when Something Bad happens, i really need to not have to explain it over and over again to people who seem to lack the ability to be mindful, or who cannot understand basic syntax or predicate.
this dynamic tends to cycle me down into Low Social Performance mode. my lens is skewed and all i can do is try and avoid social interaction. it makes me feel bad.
this could also indicate a vulnerability of my own, or rather a discrimination of when and with who i share my vulnerabilities with.
people are so needy. i'm a person, so i must be equally as needy.
do you ever meet those people who set up their life to over-enable vulnerability-sharing? it creates a false sense of intimacy that can be abandoned as easily as it is adopted. it also can fast-track into a codependence cooperative effort, something which really makes my skin crawl.
i think this is my trigger for sending my ability to share into escape velocity.
i find i'm much better after some time has passed. it has been a day, and now i am ok to talk to people.
whereas, my personality is such that when Something Bad happens, i really need to not have to explain it over and over again to people who seem to lack the ability to be mindful, or who cannot understand basic syntax or predicate.
this dynamic tends to cycle me down into Low Social Performance mode. my lens is skewed and all i can do is try and avoid social interaction. it makes me feel bad.
this could also indicate a vulnerability of my own, or rather a discrimination of when and with who i share my vulnerabilities with.
people are so needy. i'm a person, so i must be equally as needy.
do you ever meet those people who set up their life to over-enable vulnerability-sharing? it creates a false sense of intimacy that can be abandoned as easily as it is adopted. it also can fast-track into a codependence cooperative effort, something which really makes my skin crawl.
i think this is my trigger for sending my ability to share into escape velocity.
i find i'm much better after some time has passed. it has been a day, and now i am ok to talk to people.