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i feel like i haven't updated in forever.
and i feel bad that every time i update its me complaining or venting. i swear my life is good its just theraputic to type out days like today on here.
today was one of those days where there are a thousand emotions running through your head..and then it ends in one big disappointment.
i love college. i love everything about it. but right now i just need to be in my bed at home.
paul told me all week he was coming to visit. and then at 4 today he realized it wasn't doable. but really. don't tell me that you are coming. don't lead me on. don't leave me dangling.
i needed to see him more than he realized. and i think he just lost me. not forever. but at least for now... i cannot hold my breath only to be let down.
not only do i feel crushed. i am so alone now. the one that i love isn't there anymore. second place victory. goes to me.
it just sucks. there is not other way to put it. complete disappointment followed by a hang up. I CAN'T DO IT.
i have a feeling tonight is going to be a very interesting night. call the cell it'd be nice to hear from my chicas at home.
and i feel bad that every time i update its me complaining or venting. i swear my life is good its just theraputic to type out days like today on here.
today was one of those days where there are a thousand emotions running through your head..and then it ends in one big disappointment.
i love college. i love everything about it. but right now i just need to be in my bed at home.
paul told me all week he was coming to visit. and then at 4 today he realized it wasn't doable. but really. don't tell me that you are coming. don't lead me on. don't leave me dangling.
i needed to see him more than he realized. and i think he just lost me. not forever. but at least for now... i cannot hold my breath only to be let down.
not only do i feel crushed. i am so alone now. the one that i love isn't there anymore. second place victory. goes to me.
it just sucks. there is not other way to put it. complete disappointment followed by a hang up. I CAN'T DO IT.
i have a feeling tonight is going to be a very interesting night. call the cell it'd be nice to hear from my chicas at home.