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[my_jesus_mercy]

You sometimes when I get up in the morning I dont know if I can face another day,cause shits been so fucken hard for so fucken long, it dont seem like shits ever gonna change,sometimes it seems like shit aint doing nothing but getting worse,sometimes when I look in the mirror I really despise what I see, cause pride, strenth, honor, love, and life they dont seem to have a whole lot to do with me,it feels like something went wrong with me a long time ago, something inside me way down deep died and I cant remember when I just dont know where the fuck I went wrong, whats life but a river of tears anyway huh? Let me tell you something rock bottom is a sweet fucken dream, a myth made up by a liar who's despair is a void you can slip into forever,I have been as low as you can go and I guess when your at the bottom the only place you can go is up but everytime I start to get ahead, everytime I start to get somewhere it seems like someone or something just knocks me the fuck back down, one step forward, two steps back. I read somewhere that without hope man is but an animal,I think I've lost hope.Im so fucken tired of being fucked up all the time, but I cant seem to do it any other way, maybe im not as strong as you,but sometimes my fucked up life it brings me down when I look around,my life it ain't made me hard,it just hardend something way down deep inside of me, I think it was my humanity, I want it back, I want to feel normal again, I want to feel like a human, I dont want to be like this no more, Im just looking for somekind of shelter or salvation or just something to believe in or maybe just, just someone to care. Theres no where to turn, everyone betrays you,You cant trust anyone and Im so fucken parinoid, im always waiting for the fall from a let-down,theres just nobody for sure I can't remember when a days gone by where I havent thought about taking myself out, I know I ain't shit and I know I ain't ever gonna be shit, I got no future but I think I can deal with it, I think I can live if I could just look at one person and see them smile at me and know that they meant it.

I do believe this is the most depressing rant in a song I have ever heard, and people say im angry. Taken from Blood For Blood Redemption Denied!