Experiences
I can now finally say, i know where my mom was comming from when i was out late at night some where and she didn't know where i was.
Last night had to be one of the worst experiences of my life, but at the same time i guess some togetherness. Yeah, that sound pretty gay. But i don't know how else to describe it.
I'm not going to go into detail, but my dad cancelled the dinner plans they had saying it was inappropriate. Of course, my mom was devistated. I had called my dad to say something to him, and let him know this isn't right. But, we ended up talking about this for a while. In the middle of my conversation, my mom came home crying, grabbed 2 sweatshirts, and said, i'll be back after church.
I went out last night, driving around. And when i came home, at 1030 she still wasn't there. At first i was nervous. Because this isn't like her. She's usually upstairs sleeping. but, she wasn't. So i started calling around. No one knew where she was. The hours went by, and it's now 3 in the morning. Now i'm really starting to get worried. So i called her friend that she was with earlier. She didn't know where she was either.
The only thing left was to go look for her myself. I went all over. But i couldn't find her, and my dad who refused to leave the house until my brother yelled at him, suggjested the one house we own in wilkes barre.
Sure enough, she was there. I've never seen her like that before. This was the worst by far. She didn't even want me and my brother there. She wouldn't open the door. My brother had to sneak in the basement. And as i was outside, all i could hear was leave me alone go away. Crying histerically.
ONce i got into the house, they were laying in the corner. So i laid down with them, and listened to my mom cry. And then she talked aboout Saint Ann, God and Miracles. After everything that happened she talked abotu church for an hour. But for the first time in my life, i felt like we were finally a family. Not with my dad, but the three of us, my mom, my brother, and me. It didn't feel like we were a broken family anymore. Just a family without a father who cares.
At 430 we got her out of the empty house and back home. She said she had to shower, because she had to go to chruch at 730.
Now i've 1 in the afternoon. I slept pretty long. I'm still really tired and worn out. It's raining. I think this is the first day all summer that it rained all day long. But, i guess we need it. It was funny, i had a dream about the rain, and i wake up, and it's raining.
I have work at 4. My uniform is dirty. I don't know how to do laundry. I'm tired as fuck. and i can't wait til dick comes home. Because i miss him...a lot.
Last night had to be one of the worst experiences of my life, but at the same time i guess some togetherness. Yeah, that sound pretty gay. But i don't know how else to describe it.
I'm not going to go into detail, but my dad cancelled the dinner plans they had saying it was inappropriate. Of course, my mom was devistated. I had called my dad to say something to him, and let him know this isn't right. But, we ended up talking about this for a while. In the middle of my conversation, my mom came home crying, grabbed 2 sweatshirts, and said, i'll be back after church.
I went out last night, driving around. And when i came home, at 1030 she still wasn't there. At first i was nervous. Because this isn't like her. She's usually upstairs sleeping. but, she wasn't. So i started calling around. No one knew where she was. The hours went by, and it's now 3 in the morning. Now i'm really starting to get worried. So i called her friend that she was with earlier. She didn't know where she was either.
The only thing left was to go look for her myself. I went all over. But i couldn't find her, and my dad who refused to leave the house until my brother yelled at him, suggjested the one house we own in wilkes barre.
Sure enough, she was there. I've never seen her like that before. This was the worst by far. She didn't even want me and my brother there. She wouldn't open the door. My brother had to sneak in the basement. And as i was outside, all i could hear was leave me alone go away. Crying histerically.
ONce i got into the house, they were laying in the corner. So i laid down with them, and listened to my mom cry. And then she talked aboout Saint Ann, God and Miracles. After everything that happened she talked abotu church for an hour. But for the first time in my life, i felt like we were finally a family. Not with my dad, but the three of us, my mom, my brother, and me. It didn't feel like we were a broken family anymore. Just a family without a father who cares.
At 430 we got her out of the empty house and back home. She said she had to shower, because she had to go to chruch at 730.
Now i've 1 in the afternoon. I slept pretty long. I'm still really tired and worn out. It's raining. I think this is the first day all summer that it rained all day long. But, i guess we need it. It was funny, i had a dream about the rain, and i wake up, and it's raining.
I have work at 4. My uniform is dirty. I don't know how to do laundry. I'm tired as fuck. and i can't wait til dick comes home. Because i miss him...a lot.