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whats this feeling that I'm having?...
I got flowers sent to me at work, in the card said "thinking of you" and just hoping that my day is going good... I have never gotten flower sent to me or on top of that no one's ever gave me flower on v-day or my birthday, other then on my 16th b-day...and maybe this last year by my best girlfriend from work...I think by this it only made me realize that I haven't really been treated right in the past.
for example:
*when someone opens the car door, to this day my first thought that runs through my head is; "what am I driving?"
* this last birthday my boyfriend at the time took me out, drove me across town and tried to find somewhere he said special to take me... after we got done eating, he pulled something that I wasn't expecting...
"oh I forgot my wallet, can I pay you back?" I paid for my birthday dinner...
* being asked what did I want for my b-day, I said the truth saying that I wanted to go to disneyland (which I still do...today) and instead being told by the ex now that "I can't afford it" then after finding out that he just bought new band equipment, the day before v-day on top of that.
*always being the second best...what I mean is:
* having another girlfriend
* job is to important (marines)
* drugs
* getting my best friend pregent
* loving yourself way to much
(no room for anyone else)
* ex girlfriend
hmmm..... well maybe its not so bad. for the first time I feel like he wants to see me... you know it's a great feeling.... I have learned a lot and I'm glad that I went through it, it only makes me appeicate what I have today.
I got flowers sent to me at work, in the card said "thinking of you" and just hoping that my day is going good... I have never gotten flower sent to me or on top of that no one's ever gave me flower on v-day or my birthday, other then on my 16th b-day...and maybe this last year by my best girlfriend from work...I think by this it only made me realize that I haven't really been treated right in the past.
for example:
*when someone opens the car door, to this day my first thought that runs through my head is; "what am I driving?"
* this last birthday my boyfriend at the time took me out, drove me across town and tried to find somewhere he said special to take me... after we got done eating, he pulled something that I wasn't expecting...
"oh I forgot my wallet, can I pay you back?" I paid for my birthday dinner...
* being asked what did I want for my b-day, I said the truth saying that I wanted to go to disneyland (which I still do...today) and instead being told by the ex now that "I can't afford it" then after finding out that he just bought new band equipment, the day before v-day on top of that.
*always being the second best...what I mean is:
* having another girlfriend
* job is to important (marines)
* drugs
* getting my best friend pregent
* loving yourself way to much
(no room for anyone else)
* ex girlfriend
hmmm..... well maybe its not so bad. for the first time I feel like he wants to see me... you know it's a great feeling.... I have learned a lot and I'm glad that I went through it, it only makes me appeicate what I have today.