it would be so easy
this thought might have gone through my head almost every day...
"it would be so easy"
the thought is scary in itself but what I'm feeling while I say it is completly the truth of how I wish I would just let go... with everything around me. I know I'm young but have you ever though that you have come this far...and life hasn't been that great at all for you, what makes you think that it's going to be better in the future? a year from now, a week, a day, an hour? you can't! all you can say is "i'm sure everythings going to be fine." but you don't even now that for sure. I sware I think that this life is a waste of my time....and what is time...something that you tell yourself to make you feel better..."in time... someday...can't wait until....will happen someday..." no it wont, oh and if I keep telling myself that then it will never happen....what do I even what to see happen?...
why can't I just give up?...because that dreamer in me is still saying that one day your going to be happy and that you won't spend your life alone as the cat lady...but I'm sure that in the back of my head is saying "it would be so easy"
it would be so easy to just let go and never say goodbye...to run away and hide from the world, never showing the shame on your face... it would be so easy to jump from this body and never return, or would it?....
"it would be so easy"
the thought is scary in itself but what I'm feeling while I say it is completly the truth of how I wish I would just let go... with everything around me. I know I'm young but have you ever though that you have come this far...and life hasn't been that great at all for you, what makes you think that it's going to be better in the future? a year from now, a week, a day, an hour? you can't! all you can say is "i'm sure everythings going to be fine." but you don't even now that for sure. I sware I think that this life is a waste of my time....and what is time...something that you tell yourself to make you feel better..."in time... someday...can't wait until....will happen someday..." no it wont, oh and if I keep telling myself that then it will never happen....what do I even what to see happen?...
why can't I just give up?...because that dreamer in me is still saying that one day your going to be happy and that you won't spend your life alone as the cat lady...but I'm sure that in the back of my head is saying "it would be so easy"
it would be so easy to just let go and never say goodbye...to run away and hide from the world, never showing the shame on your face... it would be so easy to jump from this body and never return, or would it?....