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I do stupid actions that I can't change any one that knows me, I mean really knows me. Knows that I have been lost for a long time and I have no idea were to go, who to really trust, and who well hear me. I hate when I feel sorry for myself, and I try to dodge any bullets that come my way. What am I suppost to do? I have only felt alive once sence dirk, judd, or even steve. I don't think that I have fallen to bad but I know that I have fallen and I hit the ground hard. I would love to say or even hear that everything is going to be ok, but I'm starting not to believe it. I need another break. I already need to run and hide, away from san diego and some people that live here. I don't want to tell them when I'm leaving just leave and see which one misses me or well any. this feeling sorry for yourself is BS and I'm over it, I want to talk about puppies or kittens. I do have a story some might think that it's not such a great story but I do....
The other day I went over to cora's and she was telling me about there man beast of a lizard and how they feed this thing meat, rats no less, and I have grown up with them all my life. I was told that this lizard grows to be 7 feet, and move on to eat bunnies! but there's is only 4 feet, (damn!) they threw a rat in the cage and I guess the lizard bit the rat twice but the rat got away from it, and hide under the water bowl, where the rat was if the lizard jumped at it, the cage would fall apart. so cora's boyfriend grabbed the rat to throw her back to the lizard and instead got away from brian and ran across the floor and into the kitchen. I went into the kitchen almost 8 hours later and looked for her. I found her and after almost 2 hours I got her out. after all that and looking her over and seeing nothing wrong with her even though she was bitten twice. I told cora while I was trying to get her out that I was going to keep her if I got her out. well cora named her destany and her nick name is lucky little bitch. I have had her for 4 days now and she's finally starting to get used to having someone hold her, and used to the fact that no one is going to hurt her. she's a month old white rat with a brown nose. so I now have a little friend.
The other day I went over to cora's and she was telling me about there man beast of a lizard and how they feed this thing meat, rats no less, and I have grown up with them all my life. I was told that this lizard grows to be 7 feet, and move on to eat bunnies! but there's is only 4 feet, (damn!) they threw a rat in the cage and I guess the lizard bit the rat twice but the rat got away from it, and hide under the water bowl, where the rat was if the lizard jumped at it, the cage would fall apart. so cora's boyfriend grabbed the rat to throw her back to the lizard and instead got away from brian and ran across the floor and into the kitchen. I went into the kitchen almost 8 hours later and looked for her. I found her and after almost 2 hours I got her out. after all that and looking her over and seeing nothing wrong with her even though she was bitten twice. I told cora while I was trying to get her out that I was going to keep her if I got her out. well cora named her destany and her nick name is lucky little bitch. I have had her for 4 days now and she's finally starting to get used to having someone hold her, and used to the fact that no one is going to hurt her. she's a month old white rat with a brown nose. so I now have a little friend.