Step one: light me on fire
Step two: just walk clean away.
I love the idea of cutting my losses, selling my stuff, grabbing a backpack, purchasing a one-way ticket, and just leaving. There's really nothing holding me here and no real reasons to stay.
But, it would be harder to stay and learn how to live through the hurt and the uncertainty and the monotony. Waking up to a constant reminder of the hurt and seeing it seep into areas that were finally all my own is an idea that makes me feel like I need to prepare myself, steel myself against the pain, distance myself from the source. It makes me painfully aware of the depths to which I know I can rise to in order to ensure I don't feel this hurt again. Figuring out what makes me happy in even the most familiar and dull places will be a challenge. Its easy to be happy in new settings and with new people - the sheer novelty releases endorphins. Its much more difficult to find the happiness that comes solely from within. Staying would be the harder thing to do. The bolder thing to do.
I love the idea of cutting my losses, selling my stuff, grabbing a backpack, purchasing a one-way ticket, and just leaving. There's really nothing holding me here and no real reasons to stay.
But, it would be harder to stay and learn how to live through the hurt and the uncertainty and the monotony. Waking up to a constant reminder of the hurt and seeing it seep into areas that were finally all my own is an idea that makes me feel like I need to prepare myself, steel myself against the pain, distance myself from the source. It makes me painfully aware of the depths to which I know I can rise to in order to ensure I don't feel this hurt again. Figuring out what makes me happy in even the most familiar and dull places will be a challenge. Its easy to be happy in new settings and with new people - the sheer novelty releases endorphins. Its much more difficult to find the happiness that comes solely from within. Staying would be the harder thing to do. The bolder thing to do.