I've never really lived.

[my_eternal_star]

I'm sorry. I suck at updating this thing. I think about it everyonceandawhile but i never have anything to say.

My brain is running on overload with college,boys,friends,and just life in general. I wish i could express how excited I am about college and meeting new people.

I want a new life. Well, not really. I just want to be some where where I can be who I really want to be and do what i really want to do and become what i really wanna become. I feel restricted. I have all these dreams and ambitions and I just feel like they can't be fulfilled. I hate that feeling.

I miss you ya know. Im glad you still love me and im glad you still care. I just wish I could spend every second in your arms.. god that sounds so lame. That would be so amazing tho. There really is no greater feeling.

I have no idea what I believe anymore. I don't really believe in much of anything because i'm tired of being let down. I'm fucking tired of it. I'm so young and I have so much left to do. fuck, im young.

Also, I'm so tired of you judgemental idiots. And I really didn't want to use the word idiots bc i really wanted something stronger but I don't really feel like thinking about it. God, why can't you for once forget that you're from daviefuckingcounty and try and open your mind up to things. Stop being so damn judgemental.

I'm really not in that bad of a mood. Just a bit cynical.
I really do love you all tho.

Kelsssss.